HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY, LOVE.

Four months down, forever to go. And I am feeling like, super duper mega over major major extreme happy today. Cause I am so damn magically in love with the same person whom I promised to be my last, and spend the rest of my life with, and share this love until forever ends. And am gonna love you til the last breath of mine, and I'll only skip a heart beat, when you're no longer mine. And I can't live without you, cause you're my destiny, my heart, my world and my everything. I am so thankful that God has given me the best future spouse, the most gentleman whom I ever met, the sweetest and most romantic of them all. And I can no longer resist this feeling of mine anymore, and I just wanna burst and make love with you. Hahaha, seriously, as much as I want to control myself, as long as am holding to my belief that I'll only give up the most precious part of me, not until I get married, I'll hold it with extra bond. ;) though I know am at least a pinch to it, to the appreciation and realization that it is a necessity. And I just love him so much that, there were these times that I want to forget, or almost forget about it, but yea, 'twas fate, driving me to the right path. Haha, and I am so much relieved. I just have to wait, cause I don't hurry love. ;)

Maybe yea, am missing someone last night, and alright, I was so fucking nerve cracked and devastated, well yea, that was actually fine. Okay fine. Whatever, am not asking, and that I really don't care. It's just that I missed the feeling of being in love for the first time, I mean, I miss the feeling when I first fell in love so hard. That maybe yea, there's still a part of him that I really can't resist to let go. But one thing's for sure, that thing won't ever get deeper than the love I have for my beloved, cause he's the constant reason why am still breathing, he's the only reason why I love waking up every morning, knowing the fact that I'll see him, and be with him. And that every time he stares his deep eyes unto mine, I just can't control my self, all I wanna do is to show him how much I really love him. And that I wanna shower him with so many kisses and that he'll get drowned and simply forget about everything, I want to bring him to somewhere, like, a part of me telling me, just give it a try, cause you know, am really true to my feelings. And I want him to feel that I am only for him, no one else but him. Cause he's the sole owner of my heart, and no one can ever get me back or even away from him, cause I'll never ever do that, he's the most priceless and precious possession God has actually given me all through out these eighteen years of my existence. And that's just more than enough for me to break my heart. Not into pieces, like shattered cause am broken, but simply into two, one's part is mine, and the other half is his. Cause he completes me, he showed and guided me to the way where I should really be. ;)

Somebody asked me, "Oh, was that an engagement ring?" And I just smiled and simply answered, "Yes", with no further explanations. You answered my sign! Haha, cause I know my sign has come, that when am already of my legal age, and then somebody gives me a ring and confesses his love for me for eternity, then he'll be the man I'll spend the rest of my life with. Well yea, I didn't hesitate, I actually got nervous when he's putting the ring on my finger, but that actually made me shiver in a good way. ;) You got me! You're the most courageous guy I ever met, and you're the most loving and most lovable of them all. I don't want you to be a forecasting shadow of anyone, cause you're just simply different and the most amazing of them all. You're the man whom I almost given my most valuable possession, and that's the most significant sign that am really into you, and that am willing to sacrifice and surrender my all to you, and I promise I will. EVERYTHING. Yea, just in time. Let's not hurry love, we just have to wait~

But one thing's for sure, you'll be my last. And you'll forever be the guy whom I want to spend my whole life with, and I love you so much. So much that I want to forgot about everything, except the fact that I have you, and I love you.~

Happy Fourth Monthsary, Baby. I love you so much. We still have forever to go!~ Let's make the most out of it. Remember, I'll always be here for you, and I'll never ever leave you no matter what, cause no one can ever tear us apart, and nothing can ever change my love for you. Maybe it'll change, but it'll become stronger and stronger than ever~