Anything that a person chases in life, runs away.If I lose my self tonight, it would be easy.
It's Thursday yet again. It has been almost a week since I was introduced to this certain someone. To my surprise, we're still keeping in touch. But nothing's really going on between us. Anyway, I just oh well. Find him attractive, 'cause he wears a smarty pants. Nevertheless, I know my my, our priorities that... We won't take "this" serious, yet until we graduate on time.
On a totally unrelated news, I never quite expected that I'll have an escape from reality for at least a week. I mean, on purpose I stopped, or should I say I chose not to communicate not even feel anything for this particular someone. It was partly difficult, but hell it was all worth it. I feel some sort of dumb right now, like nothing much of the usual. I didn't have the idea of chasing back... Chasing him more, and talk to him ever again about us.
Paradoxically, what I did was... Escape. Stay away from him. Keep a distance. Just like how I started this entry, "Anything that a person chases in life, runs away." I didn't chase nor even looked back to be with him. What I did was, continue walking away from him. Happily with another. Dude, it was never easy. Really! But then again I realized what I did was just right.
I must stop seeing him. After all, he's not doing anything to have me back, and that I guess, he's not that interested with me anymore just like how he used to a couple of months ago. That certain attachment wasn't so strong anymore. And so I guess, it'll be a lot easier to slip things away. A part of me says, "stay" but more than half of me says, "go and leave. Be merry." I know it'll be wrong. Let me scratch that, I'm not even sure of what we have. We have an "undefined relationship"- no terms and shit. We're just two individuals having fun, yet the point is... I don't see any fun anymore. It is like so routine like. Cycle. Boring.
Although it somehow breaks my heart, I know nothing else's happening. We are not going anywhere. Unless we take this to the next level. Nonetheless, I know I can't live with a commitment with him, just because we'll always have petty fights, I'm immature... And he's, ohh. I don't know. He's simply. Predictably unpredictable. I used to easily read him, but now, I'm not sure anymore.
No more unstoppable sms, and minute to minute phone calls. No more annoying personal messages on my Facebook inbox. No more, no more. And unfortunately, although I really hate such things, I've learned to liked them just because I was, and I get used to him doing all these things for me. And now... It's all gone. That is the reason why, I'm not so particular of pulling myself back to him.
Perhaps, I should just let things slip away. No more contact, no more seeing each other. I'll get used to it, anyways. So maybe, back to my old shits. Which I believe had started yet. Hello, bitching around! Haha. It may sound inappropriate, but yeah! At least I know I'm having fun. Period.
'Til next time~
Xoxo
On a totally unrelated news, I never quite expected that I'll have an escape from reality for at least a week. I mean, on purpose I stopped, or should I say I chose not to communicate not even feel anything for this particular someone. It was partly difficult, but hell it was all worth it. I feel some sort of dumb right now, like nothing much of the usual. I didn't have the idea of chasing back... Chasing him more, and talk to him ever again about us.
Paradoxically, what I did was... Escape. Stay away from him. Keep a distance. Just like how I started this entry, "Anything that a person chases in life, runs away." I didn't chase nor even looked back to be with him. What I did was, continue walking away from him. Happily with another. Dude, it was never easy. Really! But then again I realized what I did was just right.
I must stop seeing him. After all, he's not doing anything to have me back, and that I guess, he's not that interested with me anymore just like how he used to a couple of months ago. That certain attachment wasn't so strong anymore. And so I guess, it'll be a lot easier to slip things away. A part of me says, "stay" but more than half of me says, "go and leave. Be merry." I know it'll be wrong. Let me scratch that, I'm not even sure of what we have. We have an "undefined relationship"- no terms and shit. We're just two individuals having fun, yet the point is... I don't see any fun anymore. It is like so routine like. Cycle. Boring.
Although it somehow breaks my heart, I know nothing else's happening. We are not going anywhere. Unless we take this to the next level. Nonetheless, I know I can't live with a commitment with him, just because we'll always have petty fights, I'm immature... And he's, ohh. I don't know. He's simply. Predictably unpredictable. I used to easily read him, but now, I'm not sure anymore.
No more unstoppable sms, and minute to minute phone calls. No more annoying personal messages on my Facebook inbox. No more, no more. And unfortunately, although I really hate such things, I've learned to liked them just because I was, and I get used to him doing all these things for me. And now... It's all gone. That is the reason why, I'm not so particular of pulling myself back to him.
Perhaps, I should just let things slip away. No more contact, no more seeing each other. I'll get used to it, anyways. So maybe, back to my old shits. Which I believe had started yet. Hello, bitching around! Haha. It may sound inappropriate, but yeah! At least I know I'm having fun. Period.
'Til next time~
Xoxo
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