Let's hope for the best

October 4, 2012
Thursday: ~

"The less you care, the happier you'll be. And yes, I should stop caring about you."

And I just realize, medjo napapabayaan ko na pala 'tong blogsite ko. Sa loob ng isang buwan, once lang yata ako nakapag blog. Wow. It's amazing. It's October already, yet.. I haven't grown up yet. Emotionally. I am still me. The old selfish and brat me. And we, we are never getting back together. Kahit anong pagmamakaawa siguro or effort ang gawin ko, things will stay just like this between us na. I don't know why I get so fucking affected parin. 'Yun na 'yun e. Tapos na. Pero, we will never be the same anymore. It can't be, it just can't be anymore. It's not gonna happen. Just that. Maybe, I should stop caring. That's it. I'll just stop this 'cause yeah, it's pointless.

I should stop caring about you. I have to move on. I have to accept that.. It's over. Our best friendship relationship is already OVER. Saab, wake up. Stop killing yourself slowly. Just always remember that, "When one door closes, another door opens." As simple as that, siguro nga, 'di ko narin dapat pang ipagpilitan 'yung sarili ko. Na magbalik pa 'yung dating pagsasamahan namin. Up until now, nakakasama parin ng loob kasi. Everything's virtual. I can't feel any reconciliation from her side, yet. Or ewan. Do I still have the friggin' right to hope for the best?

According to Sir Rigor, "Let's just hope for the best, Ms. Magora." Just that. And I was awakened. Ang magagawa ko nalang siguro ngayon, magdasal. Manalig pero wag aasang may magandang kahihinatnan. Wait, lemme scratch that. Ganito kasi 'yan. "Let's hope for the best, but let us also hope for the worst." Wala lang. Likewise, para at least, in the end, magkanda loko loko man, or mag fail man ang lahat, prepared parin tayo sa mga posibleng mangyari. Everything's possible naman e. For nothing's impossible. Yet, that word can only be found in the dictionary of fools. Medyo nahihirapan parin ako, unti unti siguro matatanggap ko ring.. Wala nakong bestfriend.


Lul, Adrienne. Tinatawag ka na nga ulit niyang Magora, di ba? Ano pang inaarte mo dyan? Binubuhusan ka na nga ulit niya ng oras sa texts and mentions sa Twitter di ba? Boo. Pero seryoso, siguro konting push nalang talaga. Pagbutihan mo kasi 'yung pangsusuyo mo. Lol. Akala ko ba susuyuin mo siya ng mabuti, pero bakit puro talk parin, less actions naman? Nako. Bahala na nga. Bahala na si Buddha. Ayoko na kay Batman. :)