No One

January 24, 2012

Today's technically the start of my long weekend. Since I won't be having my class from today 'til Monday, next week. Well, it has been a week. A week that I've been quite busy with a lot of things, trying to manage my time for all the tasks that I must endure. This includes, entering something that I've been trying to avoid for the longest run. I avoided entering politics for three years of my stay in the university, for a reason. I'm into politics by nature, since Elementary, up until High School, I was a Student Council Officer. But it all changed, when I entered College. It appeals to me that, I have to make a change in me. And that is to detach myself from politics.

But then again, I took some time to sit down and contemplate. I asked myself, 'Is this my call?' then the first answer was no. But I asked myself for the second time, and got a different answer. I'm really into politics. Whether I'll admit it or not. But it really comes naturally. No matter how hard I try to conceal, the political side of me, it would still show up and bang on me. Before answering this call, I was in deep hesitation, but asking myself, and knowing my capacity, plus discovering people's trust in me? I stood up and gave myself a try.

It won't hurt if I'll give it a try, right? It won't harm me, though. Win or lose, as long as I'll show my co-Artlets the real me, it won't really hurt. My passion is to serve, and I've been trying to conceal it for a purpose. But now, the time has come. Since I'm about to leave the university in a span of of one year, I just want to make the most of it. I just want to unleash the 110% percent of me. I was trying to deny that I am not into politics anymore, but at times like this, I couldn't just let it slipped my hands. This is an opportunity. And only a few people, are given the chance, so I shouldn't say no. After all, my duty is to serve.

Apart from the busy training that I'm undergoing through, I've been nudging myself so so hard to please myself and the rest of the core... I realized one thing. Just one thing, after all the comments they've been trying to give us. I received bad points too, because I know I'm not perfect, well, I'm just trying to convince myself that, I needed them too, after all... Opinions would remain opinions. It is still up to me, whether I'll take them as criticisms or compliments. But as the time goes by, I won't regret entering this venture, because I know, that I'm learning and will still be learning a lot more.

'Those who matter won't mind.' They might listen, but they won't really mind. At the end of the day, it is still me who'll decide what's right or wrong for me. As long as I know myself, as long as a trust and believe in myself, I won't feel neglectful. I just realize that, this is me. This is how I'll sell myself. Plus, I knowwww. I'm capable of absorbing opinions, but it doesn't mean, I'll follow them all. Cause in the end, I have no one else to trust, but myself. Just myself. People likes and loves me the way I am right now. I won't ever change myself for someone else's sake. I feel comfy with this already, and I'm certain that I'll deliver and package myself well.

Best wishes! Next week's gonna be a tough one. :) Have a good night, Blogger!