ONE MISSED CALL

September 28, 2012
Friday, One Missed Call

OMG. I can't believe this is happening. After almost a month, we're really reconciled. But I hope, I'll be able to get back her trust again, I just wish everything stays the same. Just the same. Sobrang miss na miss ko na si Zhea. Imagine a month? Wow. Gosh. Natagalan kong 'di makipag usap sakanya, personally. I don't know, pero buti nalang talaga, may text. Yes, the power of technology. Well, Ian was right, I mean Yannick was right, buti nalang nagkausap kami kanina. He's part of my past, pero let's not talk about it or him anymore. Let's not look back. Let's continue moving on. :) 'Cause the only thing I wish to talk about now is Zhea. :) I'm just extremely glad, I was able to break the ice already, for quite some time, I've been dying to try, pero kanina lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob. "If not now, then when?" Naks. Pumo-Pol Dy ako. But srsly, buti nalang hindi na umurong 'yung dila ko. Sobrang unusual kaya, gosh. I can't understand myself anymore, I can't understand exactly what I'm feeling. Nagiging lesbo na yata talaga ako? Hahaha. Pero syempre, mukhang napaka impossible namang mangyari nun. Lol. Pero kasi, kinikilig ako sa presence niya? Bakit ganun? Haha. Dang this. I ain't obsessed. I think, sobrang namiss ko lang talaga siya. At hanggang ngayon, namimiss ko parin siya. Maybe because, she's just too important to me.

Well, kahit ako nalang nagttreasure sakanya, sa friendship namin. It doesn't matter anymore. I don't fucking care anymore, cause I don't give a damn. As long as we're talking, kahit sa text nga lang. Pero the thing is, we text just like the old times. Sobrang thankful narin ako dun. Pero syempre, I won't take it into account naman na.. Someday, magbabalik na ulit sa lahat ang dati. Yung frendship namin. I'll just take it, one step at a time. Excuse me, alam kong sa taglay kong personality at sense of humor, namimiss narin niya ko noh. Di rin ako matitiis nito. Haha. Yung eksenang.. "Puro ka Zhea. Boyfriend?" Wow. I got some side comments from our blockmates tuloy. Di ako lesbo. Sobrang imposible. Haha. Pero ewan parin. Syempre, di ako makokontento. Virtual lang kasi lahat e. Medyo awkward scenic parin in person. -.- And that makes my eyes even more chinitaaaa. :O Pero, the thing is. Nagpansinan na kami. I took the hint from that One Missed call.

One missed call. Yes, one missed call. Of all people, di ba? Bakit ako parin? Hahaha. Uy. Umasa ko dun. Kinilig din ako. :)Kaderder as it may seem, pero ganun talaga e. I failed to pick her call kasi. So yeah, ako naman yung tumawag sakanya. Shocks. Sobrang sweet. =)) Pero, super gaan sa pakiramdam. I feel so relieved. At least now, I don't have to worry about anything. I don't need to be a stalker. Haha. I'll just remain a friend. A simple friend. For NOW. Pero, ang pinakamasaya sa lahat, napansin niya yung pagbabago ko. "Yung totoo, ngayon lang kitya nakausap nang ganito. Na sensible. Haha. Don't take it the wrong way, pero mas okay ka ngayon. :)" At dun, tumalon ng sobrang taas ang puso't tainga ko. :) Napansin niya rin pala. I know I can change. I just hope magtuluy-tuloy na. Yeah, she's right. I should grow up not for her, not for anyone else. But myself. And that's the best thing I've got since we ended our best-friendship relationship. It pays off, though. Thanks to her. :)