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| Sometimes you have to stop thinking too much and just go where your heart takes you. |
"I am in charge of how I feel, and today I am choosing happiness". -- My own happiness. Today's the official start of classes, yes! It's really official, I am now a senior philosophy student. Hence, today's my "last first day" as a College student. It's breaking my heart, the thought that it'll be my last. Last "first" day. Ironic isn't? Last, but at the same time first. But it happens, and it actually happened. Smoothly, and I wasn't expecting it'll be... Somehow dramatic. Although, I some sort of didn't anticipate it, but still the thought that everything's being sentimental. Let me scratch that, everyone. Maybe, it's just quite unbelievable. Just a little bit feeling passive about it. But, the moment I started rekindling about everything in that four years, though I can no longer remember everything in detail, I'm still able of projecting every single memory that gives me so much to remember. Those people whom made me feel like, I should be the happiest person, it's as if... I'm always wearing my special hat. Even though, there's isn't any occasion at all. They embraced me as I am. Completely, I was accepted for who I am, and for who I am... Not.
Let's get this straight. Technically, I didn't involved myself in any position of all sorts of organizations inside my College, and university-wide. I just felt like, I have to abide with what I promised myself, four years ago. I won't join any political arrangements in my stay in the university. Hence, I might join, but I won't spend much of my time dwelling with them. In short, I won't be as die hard and active as how I did before, way back in High School. Although, I'm feeling like, I was a bit stupid that I didn't allow myself to meet "more" people. I mean, it could have been more fun, if only I permitted myself to. But the thing is, I commend myself for being firm about my decision, for not being a fickle minded in the span of four years. Hence, I know it has brought me something that would surely, package a "strong" impact in my personality as build up my fullest potential capacity as a "student". And fortunately, I know I did it-- the right way.
This is going to be my last-first. So, I am willing to die for it! I am going to do everything, my very best to reach the finish line. I just have to continue running, maybe not as fast as the others, but... Fast enough to be in the finish line, right on time. I've been in denial that I have had committed quite a handful of mistakes in my entire stay in the university, and that includes, taking for granted my subjects, and not to mention the time. I started fueled with discipline, but noticed that I, I unconsciously lose "most" of it, in the long run. Well, I couldn't blame myself for that, couldn't I? It doesn't matter, but still it matters. There's just so much to unfold, I know it's going to be difficult, but then again, I'm geared up for this. This is my last battle, my last fight. So I better give my 101 percent for it.
I am running my four kilometers run. I consider this a run, not a race. Just because I am not in hurry to be the first placer. Uncertain though about my speed, for it varies, technically. Hence, I'm going to reach the finish line on time. Right, just in time. Definitely long and hard, but worth every step. :)
Let's get this straight. Technically, I didn't involved myself in any position of all sorts of organizations inside my College, and university-wide. I just felt like, I have to abide with what I promised myself, four years ago. I won't join any political arrangements in my stay in the university. Hence, I might join, but I won't spend much of my time dwelling with them. In short, I won't be as die hard and active as how I did before, way back in High School. Although, I'm feeling like, I was a bit stupid that I didn't allow myself to meet "more" people. I mean, it could have been more fun, if only I permitted myself to. But the thing is, I commend myself for being firm about my decision, for not being a fickle minded in the span of four years. Hence, I know it has brought me something that would surely, package a "strong" impact in my personality as build up my fullest potential capacity as a "student". And fortunately, I know I did it-- the right way.
This is going to be my last-first. So, I am willing to die for it! I am going to do everything, my very best to reach the finish line. I just have to continue running, maybe not as fast as the others, but... Fast enough to be in the finish line, right on time. I've been in denial that I have had committed quite a handful of mistakes in my entire stay in the university, and that includes, taking for granted my subjects, and not to mention the time. I started fueled with discipline, but noticed that I, I unconsciously lose "most" of it, in the long run. Well, I couldn't blame myself for that, couldn't I? It doesn't matter, but still it matters. There's just so much to unfold, I know it's going to be difficult, but then again, I'm geared up for this. This is my last battle, my last fight. So I better give my 101 percent for it.
I am running my four kilometers run. I consider this a run, not a race. Just because I am not in hurry to be the first placer. Uncertain though about my speed, for it varies, technically. Hence, I'm going to reach the finish line on time. Right, just in time. Definitely long and hard, but worth every step. :)
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