I remember the boy, but I don't remember the feeling, anymore.

June 07, 2012
4:28PM, Thursday

'Are you feeling really well?' (Metaphorical question here)

I don't know, I suddenly felt like 'lost' again. Hmm, maybe behind these giggles and laughter? I tend to be super happy outside, but I know, deep inside something boggles me. Something's not right, something's wrong. I just don't know which, I just can't figure it out. :o Well, all hopes. 'Sana, typical mood swings lang 'to.' I need peace of mind. Still, for the nth time. I don't know what's wrong. I thought I'm all well again, not until.. I felt like this.

Emptiness and lonesome. I feel empty, I feel cold, I feel all alone. Could anyone please take care of my heart and love me again? (tears) I don't know what to feel. I don't know how to react again, though classes starts again, it's as if.. Something's not right. Still, very confusing, very unreal and very undisputed. Hasty generalizations succumbing my entire soul again, but no.. These are not 'mere temporary feelings of mine' for I know, it keeps on bothering me, cause.. It is not right. Everything's not right, or should I say, everything's not well. (yet)

Wait, if this about me commuting home. I don't think it's gonna be a big fuss, yeayea, but I know and I believe, there's something more than that. I've been dying to admit this, but.. I think I need a new love life. It scares me. I can't stand the feeling of being alone, I mean.. Being single, someone left me so soon, left me hanging like a bastard hanger, and now.. Keeps on bugging me again, I just need to be detached from him. Stop bothering me, boy. :(

Gaah, I know this ain't making me any good. So I'm giving up. I'll try not to care. I'll treat you just like anyone else. I remember the boy, but I don't remember the feeling, anymore.