But I searched for you, in everyone I met~

May 03, 2012
09:48am. ~ I have searched for you in everyone I met.

I thought I'd never find you
I thought of giving in to
The doubts and fears of all these years
Chasing shadows in the dark

But here you are beside me
Forever to remind me
That impossible is not a word
In the language of the heart
I can't believe it took this long
But you are worth the wait

I searched for you
In everyone I met
Even through the heartache of regret
I saw pieces of the man I prayed
I'm finding you someday

I didn't even dared to believe
That there was someone now
That just for me
Even in my wildest dreams
I haven't dreamed you yet

Love felt like a battle
What everybody settled
Cause they're afraid
Nothing better will ever come along

I'll let others hold me
Believing what they told me
But when you say it, it's enough
To hang a lifetime on

But I guess you can't know wonderful
Unless you've known the pain

I searched for you
In everyone I met
Even through the heartache of regret
I saw pieces of the man I prayed
I'm finding you someday

I didn't even dared to believe
That there was someone now
That just for me
Even in my wildest dreams
I haven't dreamed you yet

But I searched for you, in everyone I met~

Gaaah, kelan kaya ulit ako magkakaboyfriend? Hmmm, naiinip na kasi ako. Di naman sa nagmamdali ako, pero seryoso, paano ko makakamove on ng bonggang bongga, kung marami ngang may gusto, pero.. Kahit isa naman sa kanila, di ko magawang magustuhan. Bakit? Kasi.. Di pa ko ready, pero. Kelan nga ba akong magiging ready ulit? Augh, kasi naman.. Ang hirap sumubok magmahal ulit, lalo na't.. Alam mong masasaktan at masasaktan ka lang din, kahit pa sabihin kong di ko binigay yung 100% ko, pero.. Kahit anong iwas ang gawin ko, meron at meron parin talagang pain e. Ang hirap takasan. :(

Inuulit ko, di ako nagmamadali. Pero, gusto kong magkaroon na ulit ng boyfriend, well.. Kahit di naman something official, pero gusto ko, yung meron akong 'special someone' na maituturing. Opposite sex syempre, yung magiging inspiration ko sa lahat ng bagay, magpapakilig sakin, mag-aalaga sakin, mag-aaalala, magreremind sakin para kumain ako, mag-ingat ako, etc.. Sobrang namimiss ko lang kasi talaga yung feeling na may nag-aalaga sakin. May nagmamahal sakin, yung pagmamahal na tanging 'special someone' lang ang kayang magbigay. Yung pagbabawalan ako sa mga bagay na ginagawa kong sa tingin niya, hindi makabubuti para sakin. Gaah, bakit bigla kong namiss 'tong feeling na 'to? :(

Nasaan ka na ba, Prince Charming? Dumating ka na o. Please lang. Naiinip na kasi ako e. Siguro, it's about time naman na para magmahal ako ng tapat at totoo, pangako sa susunod kong relationship, sobrang ibang ako na yung mararamdaman mo.. Kung sino ka man, Prince Charming, kung nasaan ka man, pwede paki bilisan? :)