GOODBYES ARE NOT FOREVER, GOODBYES ARE NOT THE END

Forty eight hours straight, I've been mourning. Crying myself to sleep, keeping myself busy with a lot of stuffs that would make me feel better, and forget about you.. Even just for a while, just wanted to keep myself busy and stop this nightmare. I don't wanna close my eyes, cause I know it'll only be whom I'll see. Your eyes staring unto mine, your hands holding mine, your laughs and jokes that makes me smile and forget about my problems. You always give me a goddamn reason to be happy. For we both know, "You and I belong as ONE". I'll never forget the times we used to spend, inside the Student Council Office, you as my beloved, and one and only Vice President. And I am your boss, your GORJ President. Jonathan "Athan" Salvador, why'd you have to leave us so soon? Can't you hear me crying? Can't you feel me hurting? Can't you see.. I am longing for you.. I wanted to be with you. :( Didn't you even noticed, we're all waiting for you to come back, for you to wake up. I thought you'll always be strong for me? Isn't you told me, you'll do everything and pursue all your dreams? Isn't you told me, you'll be my successor? I thought we'll be together here in UST? But why did you leave me? You're so unfair. I hate you so much. Why'd you have to make me suffer this much?

Yes, Mellow. It's breaking my heart. It's really saddening, I can't accept the fact that you're no longer seeing the same sky with me tonight. :( You didn't even wait for Saturday, I thought you're gonna watch my pageant and go support me? I thought we'll both go to Japan and have our hair fixed? Damn. Why so liar? You've been my constant companion all those times, from ditching our classes, just to go to the Student Council's Office, and talk about our own stories, our hard feelings towards our Moderator and our teachers. Our bitterness towards Sister Rebosura. :( Oh. How I wish I could turn back time. Those times when we used to stroll around the mall, and see the hip hairstyles, when I go visit you at your salon, and you show me the latest hair color. When you call me, and we talk all night over the phone, when you excuse me from my class, just to take our recess or lunch together, those times when we go room to room for our campaign. I'll miss those times, when we share the same cup of coffee, when you hug me, and grab my necklace on my neck. When we ran around the quadrangle of our dearest Alma Mater. When we both cover up each other's wrong doings. For we both know, we did something that would make our teachers disappointed Every time you compliment me with my get up, every time we're going out, those times when you carry me at your back, although you're too skinny, (macho mo kasi e. Haha, para buhatin ako. :P) those times when you go grab my thick books and let others carry it for me. Although we're not of the same batch, I know we're the perfect partners in crime.

As I close my eyes tonight, I'll get to remember the time, when you chose ME over your Mom, during your Awarding Ceremony. (The pictures are still with me.) I awarded you that day, and after your awarding, we went to the mall, play and fed our hungry bellies together.. ATHAN, I love you.. How I wish I'll see you before you permanently leave the same land I am into.. I promise, I'll never ever forget about you. You're one of a kind. But hey, wait! Have I ever told you, that I love you? If not, well. I guess, it isn't too late yet. You'll always remain inside my heart, forever. Yea, I'll miss the things we used to do. But the out most part of it all, is that.. I'm gonna miss THE WHOLE YOU.


*Can't held back my tears anymore. I promise you, things will be the same. :) I'll be the best and most beautiful girl that you'll ever knew.. I love you, Athan. See you~ I know we'll see each other again. Of course not now, but time will come.. Just hold on, and be strong. Wait for me, and all of our friends there in heaven, patiently uh? :) You've got a lot of things to tell me. I'll hold on. Hope you'll do the same. Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I'll miss you. Till the time we meet again. Thank you for everything.



Mahal na mahal ka namin. Mahal na mahal kita.


GOODNIGHT Jonathan. Have the best dream.


Your GORJ, PRESIDENT,


Ysabel