NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU

And I miss you more whenever I think about you. :'( Fucking, seriously. I so hate it, that every time I close my eyes, all I see is you, and that no matter how hard I try to think of something else, and evade my emotions into something different, it is still you, that keeps running on my mind.:| Damn, it's been a long time since my last entry here (April 28 was the last one; for last night's blog was taken from a dashboard of my friend, I just have to repost it, for I was sorta feeling the same way too, and now's the only time for me to reconcile with you, dearest Blogspot. Sorry for hanging you for so long, I just can't handle and accept the fact that I am missing someone like hell :|) I just can't hide this feeling anymore, it's been exactly two weeks, and I still can't understand myself, I just can't figure it out. Why am I feeling this way. Tell me why, it's so hard to forget don't remind me, am not over it tell me why, I just can't seem to face the truth that I am truly missing you, and no words can ever explain how much I want to be with you again, that I am longing for you this hard, it makes me feel like hell, and slowly and painfully killing me inside, tearing my heart into pieces, because in reality, all I ever think about is you. Nothing and no one else but you. I hate it that no matter how hard I try to hurt you, no matter how hard I try to make a distance and detach myself from you, it is still the same way as, missing you more and more. And in a way or two, am still dying, shattering these little pieces of me into stone. Crying myself to sleep, for my only desire now, is to be with you. I just want to see you and hug you tight, and never let go. :'( They can't tell me nothing about you cause you're my crazy love. Can't tell me nothing about how we do, cause we got crazy love. I'm intelligent, I'm not stupid not at all but my common sense, when it comes to you it falls, then I do something dumb. They say love and insanity are somewhat related. The way that they make us act, but baby boy the love between you and me is truly the greatest, though sometimes we hate it.


The easiest way to not get hurt is to not care. But that’s the hardest thing to do. Really, it's hard to pretend that I really don't care at all, that I don't really miss you at all, but damn, for heaven's sake. It has been always you, whom I think about. It has always been you whom I want to see. It makes me feel weird, that I told myself, I won't fall this hard, but it seem so serious that I can not take you off my mind, because I have loved you from the start, and I am loving you now, and I will still love you for the rest of my life. Summer's almost over for me. Few weeks more, and I'll be back to school. I'll soon be a Sophomore College student, I don't know if I'll even be happy about it, or what. Because, uh, it makes me confused. Am I ready to give it another try? (Well, I mean, entering a relationship again, something different from what I had had in the past, cause as of the moment, I have to admit that am already committed to someone, though there's no official exchange of vows yet/again. ;p But with regards to what I feel for him, since then, I never get confused anymore, since the time that I promised myself, that it'll be him whom I want to spend my whole life with through. Because again, no matter how hard my mind wants to push him away from me, it's the other way around that my heart wants me to do. Maybe because, just like before, I made it to the point that I even broke up with him (That's what my mind told me so, but my heart was left hanging, trying to defy what my mind decided to, cause in reality, I was feeling the other way around. My heart will never try beating for someone else, and it won't beat the same way as what it used to beat for the same person, no matter how hard it'll try to fool someone else it will still be the same, the same way it beats for him and no one else but him, because yes, my mind can lie whenever it wants to, BUT, my HEART will never ever do. Because I know it will always be him. It'll always be him, whom I want to love and think about. And I don't regret loving him and I will love him for eternity. Because he showed me the real way, the way to the reality and existence of what you call love. It is in him, where I felt real love and happiness. And I know it'll always be same feeling, no matter how hard I try to defy it, and keep it away from myself. Because at the end of it all, it will always still be YOU AND ME. Again, for the nth time, my feelings and most especially my eyes don't lie. It's still the same, my heart still shouts for your name, loved, loves and will love you for eternity. ;)


I remember so well, the day that you came into my life, you asked for my name, you had the most beautiful smile. My life started to change I'd wake up each day feeling alright with you right by my side, makes me feel things will work out just fine. How did you know? I needed someone like you in my life that there was an empty space in my heart you came at the right time in my life. I'll never forget how you brought the sun to shine in my life and took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say it's not everyday that someone like you comes my way. No words can express how much I love you. No words can express how much, I love you.~ And I'll never get tired of loving you, and over and over again, I'll sing this song for you, because this song best suits my love for you. ;)

- No words can express how much I love you.