SORROWS OF DISTANCES

APRIL 28, 2011- SORROWS OF DISTANCES

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It?s playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine, stay with me tonight

-This is what I truly feel as of the moment, I hate to say this, but am hurt, am sick inside, am crying for three consecutive nights already. Yes, because I am in grief despair, crying my heart out, trying to control what really hurts and kills me slowly deep down inside, my heart is breaking and tearing apart. I know I’ll long for you this hard; yet am vulnerable; trying to figure out what’s still kept hidden beneath this solitude am suffering into, in this dark, silent and hallow space in my heart. Seriously, it’s weakening these smiles in my heart because I love you so. Today’s April 28, 2011. It’s been a year, it’s just so cruel, why fate seem so unfair to a fragile person like me. A year ago, I had my very first heartbreak, (though he was not my first boyfriend, I considered him as the first guy whom I’d given extra attention, time and love, he was the first guy whom given me the feeling am wanting ever since I entered this thing, called relationship. It’s just the best feeling of remembering the things I used to believe in before; he used to be my blueberry and my everything. But, now he’s just a simple friend, and a nothing to my world. And now the guy whom I wanna spend my whole life with is leaving me too, well, not for a long due, but only for temporal, we’ll live our lives miles and miles and kilometers and kilometers away from each other, but the fact that he’s heart is with me and it only beats for me, gives me the assurance that I should wait for him, that I shouldn’t long for him this much, because everything’s gonna be alright, we’ll then be back with each others’ arms, right meant to be together with no one else, but each other. I promise to remain strong for the both of us, though my tears kept shedding, every time he utters the words “I LOVE YOU”, because slowly his deep voice is killing me, you’re breaking my heart, you’re breaking my heart. Please tell me that we could be together we would be forever over and over, we could be together, because I love you with my heart so true and I don’t wanna live my life away from you, because you’re a part of me I always want to feel.) Just like what I promised to myself, I’ll dedicate this day, reminiscing what had happened in the past and at the same time, changing it into something I really want it to be. Correct all the mistakes I’ve done and make things possible, make this love, which I used to believe in to be just a mere state of the mind and not something real to dream, feel and talk about. But now, am humbling myself, trying to admit that I did I mistake. Yes, I did a mistake, because I have fallen in love for real and for good, and continuously FALLING IN LOVE. Falling in love with the same guy who first taught me how to cry, (I mean, he was the first guy whom I cried over with, like, crying in front of him, makes me feel like am so special, not being so weak and fragile, he was the first reason why these tears shed apart upon my eyes.) I’ve FALLEN IN LOVE. Oh please just tell me, if ever I’ve committed a great sin, am ready to be imprisoned if you told me so. I am still ready to face all the consequences of my actions because my love for him is true and no one can ever measure how much love I can give him. Cause for now, am dreaming of a happy ending with the man whom I truly love and I just want to spend my whole life with him, and I know he’s worthy to be my boyfriend, my soon to be groom and my future husband. And I’m sorry if this is just too much, that I feel so affected and affectionate about this guy whom is with me now. I really don’t know what’s with him, why until now, like day by day, am finding a deeper meaning and sense into my life, falling for him more and more every day. Now’s the time that we are to live and experience a semi-long distance relationship, tonight that I’ll cry myself to sleep, that I’ll think of you all night long, wearing this shirt and jacket you’ve given me makes me just scream with my lungs out how much I will miss you, and how much my love for you can ever go and unfold this fear I kept inside, just the fact that I won’t be able to see and talk to you for like, a month. And now am longing for your warm hugs and sweet kisses, oh yes, Darling, I wish you were here.
Why do you keep on insisting and instilling into my mind that you love me so badly? That this love we shared together is unbreakable, that no matter what happens we won’t ever breakeven? That YOU AND ME will stay together FOREVER, until the end of time, until the last breath of ours? I hate to believe these, because we’re young, were innocent and most of all, we’re immature. Don’t you know it’s killing me inside? Damn. It’s hard, yes it is. Fuck this life. All these impossibilities and my strong beliefs in life, I slowly endured and carry on, now, I was able to change it all, just because I love you this hard, and I love you so much. AND I AM WILLING TO GIVE MY ALL, AND MY EVERYTHING TO YOU, JUST TO LET YOU KNOW, THAT YOU’RE THE GUY I WANNA MARRY. Oh boy, I wish to tell you that I want it to be official again, you and me together again, but it’s as if something’s stopping me from doing so, it’s not about the people around me, it’s not about the things I’ll suffer again if ever, but there’s this “mind over matter” and “matter over mind” my hypothalamus gland’s reminding me of. But baby, when you ask me again, “If you can be my Beau again,” I’ll sweetly answer back and say, “Yes, and you’re the guy I wanna marry, because you’ll be my last and my greatest love of all”. I just want to take this chance for me to evaluate things, to ask myself if I can make it, if I can conquer it all, if this love that we have is strong enough to foresee all these challenges to come. Since, I am willing to risk and get hurt every now and then for you, I have made up my mind. Cause again and again, I LOVE YOU. How I wish I could take all my tears away because no matter what, I know when I love, I’ll cry over, even to the simplest things, I am weak and fragile, but because of you, I’ll learn how to be strong and stand up again with my two feet and say your name, “Yes, say my name, I just want to hear you, say my name, cause I know it’s true, you’re changing, you’re changing me, you showed me how to live, so just stay, so just say, that you’ll stay awake for me.” Ever since the day I left you, I realized that I was left with nothing, though my friends were all here for me, and these guys trying to get me and make them they’re mine, I just stopped and stared at this corner of my eye, I really can’t afford to lose you, though sincerely, I made a wrong decision of breaking up with you, well, I mean, it’s not that ‘twas wrong, but, I just want you to realize that, I don’t wanna be treated that way, and I want you to realize that the things you should only be whenever we’re together, like, if you really love, you should have given me your complete trust, if you really does love, you should have not tried forcing me and controlling me that hard to express my what I feel for you. Because I know, it takes time, it takes time for a woman to say she loves you, and she will forever love you, just handle her with care and never let her cry. Cause a girl like her should be treated well and never be taken for granted.
I hate it whenever the love am giving is enough to be questioned, cause my love is never measurable; it is immeasurable, it is unconditional, and for heaven’s sake it will only be offered and shared to no one else but you. Because you’re my, you’re my true love, my whole heart, please don’t throw that away. Baby please don’t you ever feel that I will and I am cheating on you, because you’re my one and only, you’re my world, and you’re my everything. You’re everything I always wanted. And you will forever be the guy whom I’ll share my whole life through. That no matter what happens, everything will stay just right the same, and you will forever be loved and cherished by me. And I want you to know that my life’s worthless without you by my side. “I will never let you fall, I’ll stand up with you forever, I’ll be there for you, through it all, even if saving you would sends me to heaven, cause you’re my, you’re my true love, my whole heart, please don’t throw that away, cause am here for you, please don’t walk away, please tell me you’ll stay”. I suddenly remember somebody told me, that whenever I am down, and feeling awful, I should write about what am feeling inside, and now am in the mood of reminiscing what had happened in the past which I know made me stronger as of the moment, like having this intense feeling of love, always reminds me of a guy whom I always think about. That every time I am alone, just like today, there’s nothing else on my mind, except him, I kept thinking about him. I am actually wondering if he ever does feel being tired, cause he keeps on running into my heart and in my mind, cause in my heart the reality is him, am all alone without him, days are dark without a glimpse of him, now that he came into my life, I feel complete, flower has bloom my morning shines, and I can see, his love is like the sun that lights up my whole world, I feel the warmth inside, his love is like the river, that flows down through my veins, I feel the chill inside.- As what my favorite song tells me, it is his love that makes this fire in me burning deep down to my soul, I ca n always feel the warmth of his hugs, and I miss the fact that I should be feeling it now. I miss him. Yes, badly. I’m officially missing him. :’( I hate to admit this, it’s breaking my heart, “but I am missing him, because I love him.”
Since I can’t express what I truly feel whenever we’re facing right about face with each other, that whenever he tries to ask me what’s inside of me, I’ll immediately shift to another topic, or just simply ignore him, cause you know am a cry baby, and am sensitive, I easily cry about the silliest things in life. Well, I’ll just take this chance to write here how our love story actually has begun.
One sunny ordinary morning, while my friends and I were walking towards Plaza mayor, in front of the main building, going to Robinsons’ Ermita, Alyssa pulled my arm, and suddenly shouted “Bannag, si Magora o!” So I was just like, damn? What the fuck, Buera, what the hell is your problem? I feel so much irritated, why on Earth she has to do that silly thing, so I covered my face, cause it’s damn hot and at the same time I felt sorta shy seeing the guy whom I used to exchange comments and chat on Facebook for the first time. Wala lang, it sucks lang for me, cause I felt like, what the hell? What entered her mind to do that pa kasi, and what’s with me, and with him? Hell no. Wala naman. We’re just plain friends in a social networking site. We just talk there, nothing more, nothing less. So I was shocked, when she told me, that Bannag was looking for me daw to her during the Paskuhan night. And almost day, she keeps on asking me, kamusta naman kayo ni Bannag? Ihh. Hello? WTF again, I ain’t hitting on him, besides I have 1 POL1 and 1POL2 guys with me during those times. So yea, that was the first time I saw him, parang wala lang. plain and ordinary, well, honestly it sucks and kinda awkward pa nga e. That’s the only thing I can actually remember, and then came Quadricentennial countdown, I was with my blockmates Lyka, JP and Alyssa plus her ROTC friends, I don’t even know why I ditched my other blockmates, and go on with them that night, maybe para maiba lang, haha. Cause am always with my other girlfriends narin naman, that time, I wasn’t close to Lyka and Alyssa yet. So when they asked me to come and join them, I never had second thoughts na. So, were positioned near the largest screen at the grandstand, everytime I check my phone, I felt like, fucked up. What’s wrong with the signal again? Haha. Bitch, super delayed, and then I got 2 to 3 missed calls from Mike, and a lot of text messages from my friends, asking me where the hell at UST I was, and 2 messages were from him, asking the same question. So I replied in a stern manner pa nga, cause I am feeling like so irritated about the fucking signal. “Nasa may malapit nga sa malaking screen ng grandstand” ahaha. So parang kulit na kulit lang e. then, after like 20 minutes or so, Alyssa pushed me, and told me.. “Adrienne, wag kang lilingon, magtago ka na bilis.” So ako naman, WTF? Why did you pushed me? Then at my peripheral view, I saw somebody na nga. She even asked me, si JP o ‘yun? Hahahaha. I can still remember how she describes his character to me pa nga e, which I should stay away from him, and blahblah. He’s flirt and sweet talker lang daw kasi. Then when he comes near me na, honestly, I get fucking irritated, cause he tickled me around my waist kagad. So ano yun? FC ka talaga e noh? Err. That made me believe Bueras’s comments about him. One thing more, he keeps on taking photos pa? Shit. Vain ka ba? Bakit ka picture ng picture? Naku, I just told myself, Sab, chill. Relax. Okay? I swear. Sarap manghampas e. Pafeeling gentleman pa kunwari, then whenever am seated on the grass, and get up again, he’ll offer his hand pa to help and raise me up. So, naiinis na nga ako diba? I grabbed JP’s hand instead. Then, nung kumanta na si Gary V. ng emo song, Sana Maulit Muli yata yun, can’t help myself but cry out my heart, I said to Buera “Ang sakit, ouch” Haha. Pero that was a joke lang naman, I remembered my ex boyfriend kasi, he used to sing that song to me kasi, as a lullaby for me. Then, nung Itchyworms naman na yung kumakanta, Akin ka nalang, “Akin ka nalang, Iingatan ko ang puso mo” everybody’s were like screaming and shouting, omg. It sucks. I hate that song kaya. Si FC naman, lakas ng boses kumanta pa nun, so kailangan sa malapit talaga sa tainga ko? Err. Lalo lang tuloy akong nairita. But I know, he was singing that to Buera. They were like, together kasi. ;) I just don’t know what the heck happened between the two of them. So yun, why all of a sudden iniiwasan siya ni Buera. Anyway, after the fireworks display, after our tuition fees puffed up away upon the sky, when everybody’s in chaos, looking for a way out of the grandstand, after biding goodbyes to Buera, and to her ROTC friends and to JP, this FC guy asked me to accompany him to Starbucks, however, I said to him naman that I have to go home na, and since everyone’s in chaos. What the hell, how could I find my way out, sobrang sikip and all, there’s no way out. So, he extend his hand, and then I held it naman, pero syempre, bumitaw ako, after magkaroon ng space, tinatangay lang kasi ako ng mga tao nun, that’s why I took his hand narin. Then, nagpakagentleman naman si FC, hahatid nalang daw nya ako, since I rejected to accompany him to Starbucks. Naisip ko naman, weh. Okay lang, di naman pala siya harmful e. He’s gentle pa nga, kasi he even accompanied me to my dormitory, so that I’ll be safe lang. Since its past 12mn na. I felt glad lang, and at the same time, super secured. The last time I felt that way kasi, was during my last relationship pa, that my ex-boyfriend used to bring me home pa, so that he’ll know I was able to reach him safe. Wala lang, namiss ko lang yung ganung feeling, maybe that’s why nasabi kong he’s gentle and sweet. So as we bade goodbyes and goodnight, he told me, wala pa daw kami picture together, so I grabbed his camera, and took a picture of us for him. And I said thanks for accompanying me home. So when I am already upstairs, I texted him and thanked him again for what he did for me. Indeed, that was actually sweet. So, nasabi ko naman, he can actually be a good friend of mine naman pala. Though Buera used to tell me, stay away from him. I saw something in him na siguro di nakita ni Buera sakanya? I don’t know. He’s kind naman kasi, and can carry a good conversation well. So I guess there’s nothing harm in befriending him back narin naman. So, we were like texting na, after that celebration, he even asked me if am free the next Tuesday then, cause it’s my P.E. and his dismissal would only be around 2PM, so I said that ‘twas alright with me lang, I could even remember that he has his guitar with him pa, kinukulit kulit pa nya ako. Pero ako naman, I keep on teasing him with Buera, haha. Kasi nga, I know they’re together. The clock strikes 3PM, it’s Social dance class, I have to go, but he told me, he’ll wait for me after my P.E. class, I didn’t say anything naman, just nodded my head, then during our P.E. my blockmates were like, asking me, Adrienne, sino ba yun? Boyfriend mo bay un? I was like, damn. Hell no, I don’t have a boyfriend kaya, am single and ready to mingle lang naman e. :) nagtampo pa nga yata sakin yung bestfriend ko e, kasi alam nya wala akong boyfriend, pero.. Sino daw yung kasama ko nay un, then I heard a lot of rumors na, that gave me the reason to stay away from him na nga talaga. Cause, he was really Buera’s ex boyfriend, so what’s on my mind was.. I should stay away from him, baka magalit pa sakin si Buera that her ex’s acting that way towards me. So, after P.E. we went to Coffee Indulgence and brought a drink, and then I suddenly remember, that he told me, he’ll wait for me. Buera even told me to go back, but I didn’t, cause I don’t want her to get hurt, knowing that they have something together nga. Well, I actually saw him seating there, where I left him before our P.E. starts, but I still act normal, as if nothing happened, I continued walking and go with my friends near the main building, cause there’s an exhibit of paintings daw, so we proceeded there, when suddenly, I saw him. He was handing me a plastic, with 2 drinks inside, he told me, and the ones for me, and the other ones for Buera. Honestly, I wouldn’t be accepting it pa nga. But when he told me, sayang naman daw yun kung itatapon lang, sayang din naman daw yung pera. So I accepted it nalang. Hinatid narin ako ng mga guy blockmates ko sa dorm ko, and I asked myself, what shall I do with these drinks, kakainom ko lang naman e. So what I did was, I leave it there, sa study table ko, and go down again, they’re waiting for me pa kasi downstairs, we’ll talk lang daw, since wala naman kaming homework or quiz the next day, pumayag narin ako. Kahit hanggang 7PM lang. We just talked about random stuffs, about our love lives syempre, I told them, yes, am missing the feeling of having a special someone narin. Pero it’s not yet on my mind, makakagulo lang sa studies ko. During that whole first week of February, we were like seeing each other often, like every night pa nga, I remembered, I was on my to the main building, when somebody suddenly appeared, asking me to accompany him to the McDonald’s, gutom na daw kasi sya, so since I have nothing to do naman, pumayag naman ako. I thought I’ll accompany him lang, pero he insisted of buying food for me narin, we just talked about stuffs, kung anu-ano lang, may problem nga yata ako nun e, oh. Oo, tama, I shared it to Buera nga pala. At the same time, I don’t know kung yun din yung day na ginulat nya ako, while I was talking to Buera. I forgot na? Haha. Pero omg. Super nagulat ako nun, sobrang naasar na naman ako sakanya nun e. Hay. Anyway, one thing I remembered pa, we sat in front of Greenwich, naka Indian seat pa nga ako. ;) Then he was asking me a lot of stuffs, though medyo foul na kasi, something too personal na, pero di ko narin naman napigilan yung sarili ko. Nakapag kwento narin ako, mostly about my previous experiences and relationships I’ve had had. I don’t know, but it’s as if, I find it comfortable talking to him, about those stuffs, maybe I just miss having a close guy friend, whom I can share my problems with. For me, wala namang meaning yung mga pinapakita nya sakin, kasi nga.. He’s into Buera, so why mess up with me at the same time diba? Yun at the same time, medyo nagkakalabuan narin kami nila 1POL1 and 1POL2, we don’t get to see each other narin kasi that often, so am a little bit sad about it narin. But it doesn’t really matter, cause am just playing around with them, nothing so serious about. There came a time, which we often go to the chapel, and nearby the field, buy drinks from coffee indulgence and talk and talk about anything under the sun. haha, just like what I said earlier, I don’t know what’s with him, that I’m finding it too comfortable sharing even my personal stuffs with him already, that though I’ve got more important things to attend to, I’d stay with him for a longer period of time pa. Though am suffering so much for my studies na, okay lang sakin, as long as I can talk to him. Maybe it’s only in him, where I can find real and good and conversations with. But I’ve got one big problem, my blockmates doesn’t want to us together, like, they hate to see us talking and stuff. But for me naman kasi, I just want him to be my friend, nothing more and nothing less naman. Kaya, they don’t have to worry, I ain’t fooling them naman, am just being truthful to myself, pero, ayaw talaga nila sakanya e. So I have nothing to do about it, when ever am with my friends, kailangan ko siyang iwasan, para di naman sila mag-isip pa nang kung ano man namamagitan sa aming dalawa. There came a time, uh, I can’t remember exactly, kung February 3rd or 4th yata yun, when he answered my sign, he gave me a bouquet of white and red roses, in front of everybody, with matching luhod pa, naku, that’s why I stared at him sharply, asking him to get up, so deep inside, I was smiling, ang cute naman nya magsorry. Haha. And in reality, I felt his deepest sincerity, he was too sorry for what he did daw during our P.E. class, that he shouldn’t expected too much from me daw and blahblah. :| Dun palang, nararamdaman ko na, lumalambot na yung stoned heart ko, am starting to like him na, pero not love. Like pa lang naman. I’m glad somebody answered my sign, but I wasn’t expecting that it’ll be him, I thought matatagalan pa. But I was just damn shocked, why so soon? ;) Anyway, back to my friends, am having a hard time convincing them to like him too, for me as one of my friends. Kasi di naman siya harmful, he’s so kind pa nga e, and so gentleman pa kaya. Pero, yun nga daw kasi, di daw kami bagay. Kay Buera nga lang daw siya bagay, sabi ng isa sa mga kaklase ko, hindi daw sa akin. So ako naman, natawa. Haha. Excuse mehhh? I don’t feel anything like, extra special for him naman e. Kaya please, stop worrying na po. :) Here comes Valentine’s Day, pinakilig nya ako nang di nya nalalaman, I really don’t know what to do, when he pulled out the last stem of rose, “Can I be your BEAU?” grabe, kabang kaba ako nun, I don’t know what to say, shall I answer him with a yes, or turn him down? Naisip ko naman, I ain’t ready to commit myself again, but at the same time, little by little, kahit di ko pa talaga siya mahal, I’ll learn how to love him rin naman, so I’ll risk myself nalang. Sasagutin ko na sya, pero syempre may mga conditions, kasi nga, di pa ako sure sa nararamdaman ko talaga. Saka yung sa sinabi ng parents ko sakin. Well, kailangan ko naman yung panindigan, syempre. Well, naalala ko na naman yung sweet proposal nya, 12 red roses, nakalagay sa bawat stem, “I LOVE YOU SAAB” tapos, 4 white roses, grabe. Kinikilig ako. This is extraordinary from my previous Valentine’s Day experiences e. This time, may kasama ng proposal, how sweet. ;) Kasabay pa ng napakacalm and peaceful night sa may field at chapel ng UST. ;) Everything was so magical that night. Pero, the next day, back to reality na ko, I’m scared that somebody will screwed me up, kapag sinabi kong may boyfriend na ako, lalong lalo na, yung taong ayaw pa nila for me, so am thinking when to tell them that we’re together na. It took a week pa nga yata before I admitted them, and made it to the public that I have a boyfriend already, takot na takot ako nun sa magiging reaction ng mga friends ko, cause the last time we talk, I was like talking to them about me, not entering another relationship not until makagraduate ako ng College, and ang super weird lang kasi, why super soon diba? Parang di man lang pinag-isipan. Haha, pero sabi ko nga, am willing to take a risk, and face all the consequences of my decision. So, yea, I’ve sacrificed a lot na, siguro nga, it’s a part of it na, that I’ll have a lesser time with my studies, plus with my friends na, cause am committing myself to him already, then, I have to text every now and then pa, magpuyat just to talk to him sa chat sa facebook, or sa video call sa skype. Hahaha, tapos, di makakapagreview sa gabi, di makakatulog na maaga nang dahil sakanya. At marami pang iba. Hanggang sa di ko na pala namamalayan, na “minamahal ko na pala siya”. Honestly, I don’t know when it all started, cause at first, I have to admit that, I just like him as a close friend, kahit kami na nun. But, maybe I realize that he’s really the one for me, nung.. Hmmm? During the time that I was saying sorry to him about what had happened nung Human Cross, we were together sa may lover’s lane, makikipagbreak na ako sa kanya nun, pero, parang di ko pala kaya. There’s a part of me, saying. Don’t give up on him yet, it’s too early for you to say that you’re not meant to be, ihhh. Kahit naman nga pala nung 1st week pa lang ng relationship naming, ganun na e. ewan, sobrang nakakabaliw lang yung roller coaster ride ng pag-iibigang ‘to. Di na siguro healthy, ang dami nang nasasaktan at naaapektuhan. g nalang natin to, as in sobrang daming beses na talaga na dapat kami’y magbbreak na, di ko na matandaan pa yung iba. Yung di pa sya pumasok para lang daw makasama nya ako for the last time. Oh diba? Imba. Nakakaloka lang e. Di pa nga ako umuwi nun para makasama lang sya hanggang gabi e. ;) Sabi ko sa’yo. Nakakabaliw to e. Haha. First monthsary namin, March 14, 2011, I received his first letter for me, then he gave me a pin “YOU AND ME FOREVER” and a billiard keychain number “14”, so nung binasa ko yung letter, I was with my roommates already, nasa Thai Cuisine kami, eating dinner na. I almost cried, ang sweet kasi ng Boyfriend ko. Mahal na mahal ko yan. ;) Then, the next day, birthday ng bestfriend ko, the next day, March 16, 2011, it’s my day, 18th birthday ko na, I was apart with my family, and the only people who made it so special was my blockmates, singing me a happy birthday song, my roommates, whom prepared a tear jerker VGA presentation for me, High School friend whom texted me, and called me just to greet me, social networking site friends that reached almost 1000 greetings, and my boyfriend giving me our first child- Pinky Swirl. ;) Hahaha. She’s pink obviously, she’s super cute. I felt extra special, and loved. He even met my Dad ;) Plus when Dad brought food for me pa nga pala, and Mom called me during that night, that day was so damn awesome. March 19, 2011 comes, Debut ko na. :) It’s my BIG day. ‘Twas the first time my family met him, heart shaped necklace he’d given me, that am actually wearing as of the moment, strengthens our love for each other more. That night was also the first time, I kissed him for a long while, and he hugged me tight, though ang crucial ng moment, my parents were inside that room kaya. :) binantayan nya ako hanggang sa makatulog ako. Sobrang sweet nya, pero, here’s the dilemma, he’s too jealous, and he’s choking me already, it sucks na. I know I love him, but I have to make a choice. I just have to leave you first, but I promise to go back to you, when am ready to commit myself again for you. ;) And this time, I promise, no more turning back. We’re back together, for eternity. BECAUSE NOW, I ALREADY MADE A CHOICE AND THAT CHOICE IS YOU. IT’LL BE YOU AND ME, TOGETHER FOREVER, UNTIL THE END OF TIME. YOU’RE MY BEAU, AND AM YOU’RE BELLE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. :*

- PS: This seems to be too long, but still lacks a lot more stories kept hidden. ;) But one thing’s not hidden, because it’s too obvious already, I’M YOURS, AND YOU’RE MINE, ETERNALLY. I LOVE YOU, Michael. It’ll only be you, and me, no one else in between. ;)