ONE STEP AT A TIME

+ Time Of My Life +

Saturday, October 30, 2011

Finally, I got my career back. I'm so back to modelling. Welcome back, Discovery Talent Agency (DTA). Really, it's been so long since I have modeled for something, way back Third Year High School days, yea. Summer of that victorious times of mine. And I have to admit that I miss the job. Well, silly as it may seem, I told myself that I'll only be back with this type of job when I reach the age of 20, like, wherein am already in my Third Year College. But, since I'm wholesome. (Kidding) Haha, I mean, since I'm in troublesome as of the moment, really bored and stuff, I'd like to explore more of myself. Discover new things, and meet more friends. So I decided to go back to this agency. Cause I realize that I shouldn't be enclosing myself into this lonesome, for I've got tons of opportunities to grab and be the best that I could be. I signed my contract in DTA already, and wishes to devote my free time, with the photo shoots and print ads shooting. (I don't think I'm getting any younger at all) so, I guess, it's the right time for me to get this job back, might loose it and feel the remorse in the end. Since, this is one of my passions, I swear. I'll do good on this. :>

Well, since I'm back to modelling.. I've got myself pampered at the Skin Station somewhere in Makati, yeah, at Bel-Air. Since I was with Mom, haven't had this kind of beauty regime for about two months already. I miss this. Yeah, DP. Diamond Peeling. I know it sucks, well. No, but it makes me more "beautiful". Haha, one of my secrets why I'm pretty as like this. ;p (Of course, I'm just kidding. Haha. But seriously, I'm too young for DP. Imagine, I'm only eighteen. Well, it doesn't matter, at least I had fun. ;p)

But, wait. Here's the real thing. It's October 30, and it's a Saturday, surely there will be a great traffic jam along the road. And as much as I'm expecting, really 'twas a struggle. Anyway, the dork of my Dad. Haha. He didn't even bother coming back anymore, once he lift us to Skin Station, so no choice. Mom and I have to do the thing! Let's go commute! Jeep, MRT and bus ride! Well yeah, it's alright and very fine with me. But, please. No to traffic jams. It makes me sick e. (Bagong diamond peel lang kaya ako. Heck no, OMG!) So, how's this? While standing in the MRT, I got really pissed by this guy with his girlfriend. Shitty life. Since it's too crowded, he's just like a centimeter away from me. And so, we're so closed to each other. He keeps on elbowing my boobies. Really, it sucks. And that's the reason why I have to hate riding MRTs and LRTs. O.o

While on our way to Makati, I admitted Mom na may feelings pa ako kay Mike. Pero, since wala rin naman na kaming communication for like a week na, and he don't even bother sending me an IM, kahit hello or kamusta man lang when he went online.. I bet, everything's alright na. I told her, Jared's inviting me for like a couple of times na, pero I always end up, making him wait and hope for nothing. And I told Mom, that I'll only get to see Jared again, pag December na. Sa debut na ni Tricia, para naman. 100% wala na akong feelings kay Michael. And I'll be open to possibilities narin. But, I ain't thinking of those yet, since masyado pa namang maaga para magsalita about these things. I'll just have to wait, yun lang naman makakapagsabi kung wala na talaga akong nararamdaman for my recent ex e. ;>

Whatever. Haha, I got really pissed. But at least Mom and I went home safe. And yeah! I finally got my job back! :> The deal is: No pressure. I'm doing this thing for I love what I'll be doing. Just go with the flow, forget about yesterday, and live with the present. :> For the past won't make you happy. Move on, Girl. Keep yourself busy. :> Araso~


+ I Just Want To Grab Your Hand, And Be Like, You're Mine +

Sunday, October 31, 2011

No more flight to Cebu. Fail. Mom have to go back to the office as soon as possible. Really, she's getting too workaholic na. And I guess, it's not good for her anymore. Well, instead, Subic drive nalang. Then, long joyride. Haha. Since, we're going to Quezon to visit Mama and Papa (Lolo and Lola, Mom's Mama and Papa) at the cemetery. Here's the cool thing. My brothers were not with us yet. My youngest brother has to take his entrance exam pa in UST e. So, mauuna na kami. Susunod nalang sila the next day. :> So, basically, today is a Sunday, and we all expect that they'll be there on a Monday, then we're all going home na on a Tuesday evening. Early morning of Sunday, we went home all together, with my cousin Meg and her family. Wala lang. We often do this kasi, sharing the same long trip, para di naman boring. Imagine, NLEX, to SLEX and then vice versa. Haha, I know, it sucks. And sakit kaya maupo for a couple of hours, without doing anything. Well, I have with my Chupa Chups can. :> well, syempre it's filled with Chupa Chups, obviously, pasalubong ko yun sa mga kiddos sa bahay. I sincerely miss them na e. Here it goes, I actually love the ride, for we've got tons of pit stops pa. First in Mandaluyong City. We get those packages from abroad. Nothing so special naman e. Laging chocolates lang for us, kids. Well, I don't consider myself as a kid na naman e. It's kinda struggle when we're actually looking for Tito's place. His condominium was like a compound pala. Really, twas awesome. I wanted to transfer na nga. Since there's a huge club house nearby. As in, ang cool nung pool. I told my Mom that I want to live there na nga. Haha. I want a unit there. :> It's a healthy place to live in kaya, although it's far from UST.

Anyway, next stop.. Paranaque City. Well, wrong timing. I know it sucks. I'm moving on kaya. Haha, why do we have to go to Paranaque? Plus, why do we have to talk about Singapore? I said.. I'm moving on! Haha, stop reminding me of someone I've forgotten already. (Imagine, one week na kaya kaming walang communication, so lalong namotivate ako para makalimutan siya.) Well, it's working naman. Anyway, we're going to Singapore daw, if not this coming Christmas, then sa Summer na. So ayon, lunch at Serye Cafe Filipino. Still, I was with Mom, Meg, Tito and Tita. And we so happen to meet Meg's Auntie, (Tita Marlene) with his Son (Kerv) Haha. Oo na. Alam ko naman. Matagal tagal ko naring namimeet si Kerv. (Well, he's a Green Archer, 3rd year student) La Sallista e. So, we actually share the same cup of tea, kahit papaano, cause. Alam mo naman ako, I don't know why and how, pero parang.. Lagi nalang may kakilala, saan mang sulok ng mundo. Haha, common friend namin si Kuya Arman, na blockmate naman nitong si Kerv. Well, I know medyo awkward and nakakailang kapag nakakasama ko si Kerv. For I'll get to remember, what my cousin Meg has told me before. Hanggang ngayon daw, wala paring nagiging girlfriend si Kerv, cause he's searching for the almost perfect girl, yung tipong IT girl. So, ano naman sa tingin ng pinsan ko, ganun ako? Haha. Well, I could still remember naman, that moment na naglamay sila sa wake ni Mama Mercy last December, nung pinakilala ako ni Meg kay Kerv. Then, nagshaked hands kami. And then that night, sabi ng pinsan ko, Kerv likes me daw. So, oo. I have to admit naman, kinilig and naoverwhelm ako. La Sallista yun e. Tapos, ang cute pa. :"> Matangkad pa, haha, though he's not that of Jared nor JL's height naman. Basta mga tipong 5'8 to 5'9. Plus, he drives his own car pa. Blue yung color. Oh di ba? Pogi points x1000000. Hahaha. :"""">

Then, that day. Same thing. He drives his blue car, but this time. May sticker seal na ng De La Salle University, so lalo naman akong naging interested about the sticker. Not about him, syempre. Haha. (Pakipot pa ako.) Pero, syempre, deep inside, narealize ko, there's nothing wrong naman if I'll try to at least be friendly. Baka naman kasi isipin ni Kerv, masyado akong snob. Which is not true naman. ;p of course, not with his type naman. Haha. =)) Ehhh, ayon na nga. Maglulunch na sa Serye. He pulled the chair for me, and magkatapat kami ng seat. OMG, tuwang tuwa naman yung pinsan ko, di ba? Kasi nga. Type daw ako ng pinsan niyang si Kerv. At nahanap na daw nitong si Kerv si Ms. Dream Girl nya. Ako naman, Single. Kaya sabi nya, wala namang problema. We can try, I mean. We can be friends. Alangan namang sungitan ko na naman di ba? Mabait and wholesome naman si Kerv. And narealize ko rin, pumayag akong mag coffee with him, not because of anything, I mean. Hindi naman ako nakipag date, walang akong ginagawang masama. Hindi katulad nung ginawa sa akin nung ex ko, nakipag date kaagad sa ibang babae. Kapag maaalala ko, nasasaktan ako. Pero wala eh, ganun lang yata kabilis nya akong kalimutan. Well, it doesn't matter naman na, tapos na e. :> After ng lunch, papunta na kami dun sa mga pinag park-an ng mga cars. Pero, Kerv insisted. Wag muna daw kaming pumunta sa Manila Memorial Park, sabay sabay na daw kami. Nandun pa kasi sila PNoy, and her Sister Kris Aquino, super dami pang tao. So, sinabi niya yun kila Tito, and yeah, he invited me for a cup of tea muna, wala lang. Just to kill the time, usap usap. Syempre, kaming dalawa lang. Kainis nga e. Ang BV ng pinsan ko, iniwan akong mag-isa. So, Kerv and I ended up together alone. Nothing so serious naman, but when he faced me "I just want to grab your hand, and be like, you're mine." Grabe, nag-stopped na yung scene, as in parang feeling ko, nag-freeze ako. Then, ayon, so timely, dumating naman sila Mom and Meg.. Aalis na daw kami, wala na sila PNoy sa Manila Memorial Park. So, di na masyadong traffic. Hindi ko na nasagot yung tanong ni Kerv, and nagpaalam narin kami sa isa't isa. And until next time nalang. Hinatid nya ako dun sa may kotse, and nag wave siya ng hand sa akin. Ganun din ako..

And nung nasa Manila Mememorial Park na kami, sabi ko.. Dito nakalibing si AJ Perez di ba? And the back of my mind, may naalala na naman akong hindi dapat maalala. (Malapit lang yung subdivision ng ex-boyfriend ko dun, sabi niya..) Haha, pero it doesn't matter. Nag segway lang naman sa isipan ko. Then, habang nasa trip.. Long trip, iniisip ko yung sinabi ni Kerv sa akin. Ewan ko baaaa. Haha. Okay naman siya eh, wala pang nagiging girlfriend, kasi naghihintay ng Ms. Dream Girl nya, so ibig ba sabihin, nahanap na niya ako? Ano namang gagawin ko? O.O


+ To Be Continued.. +