Bonifacio Day

Last day of November~

I took the risk: Navel piercing @ Needlejuice, Taft Avenue

Hey, it's the last day of November. Thank Gat Andres Bonifacio for the holiday~  

Nothing new. Same old story, but things might haven't been worse this time? I guess. There were times when we're good, then we're not. I don't know. Still hanging, each and everyday, things are getting even more complicated. I don't know if this is his way of letting me go, or is he like, really... Teaching me something. As I remember the last time we talk, "I just hope you'll learn from your experiences, that is the only thing I want you to understand."

Damn. That was sweet, but... Still, I don't understand things. Whenever I ask him, if he still loves him, he'll always say yes... But. I just, ugh. I just don't feel it anymore. I trust him, though I don't know where this thing is leading us. Whether we're actually on the verge of losing this, or is there still another chance? I just couldn't understand why he has to leave me, us hanging. Yes, I understand he's busy at Law school. But dude, he used to tell me, I am his stress reliever, that before whenever he's tired of reading stuff from the academe, he'll immediately call me, or text or chat with me. Now... Things' totally different. Things has changed. From his stress reliever, to the cause of his stress right now.

Yes, I admit it. I miss him, but sad to say... I can't do anything. I'm just waiting for him to do something. Problem is, I slipped just another chance. We were supposed to meet last Sunday morning, but I brushed the idea away. And yes, this is what I'm telling. I'm actually the problem. And.... I'm just creating my own problem. Just because I'm overthinking.

He's still there. I just keep on insisting to myself that he's gone. Simply because, I am not satisfied. I am bored, and I am unhappy. Now, i write about these things, I am beginning to realize what went wrong. And whatever happens, whether he comes back or not... All I need to do is to regain my sanity. I need to overcome my own state of confusion, before proceeding to a more complicated level of "overthinking." :)