Saturday, August 18, 2012

It's Turning a Week.

I don't know what to feel. I don't know how to react. But am feeling like a candle. A burning down candle. I feel weak and extremely empty. I just wanna end this pain soon. I ain't sure if I get to perfectly ignore this feeling. The 'pretencious' side of me. Not minding my feeling. Being numb and hard headed. But for almost a week, I feel restless. I feel total bum. I feel zero emptiness in me. I can't see the point why I have to fake my smiles, pretend as if everything's okay.. But yeah, I realized it's all my fault. It's my choice to suffer. Instead of completely being happy. I'm giving myself agony. And it sucks compeletely. It's breaking my heart. 'consciously'.

Now say what? I can't do anything about it. I just can't contain these feelings anymore. It's killing me. It's very unstable. It's very mind boggling. It's beyond my control. As much as I want to ignore the 'pain' it's slowly killing me. Hope this ends soon.

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