CUDDLE WEATHER

"Just disregard the weather?"

Boo! "Itaga mo sa bato!" Like a dagger! Haha. Srsly. Since my confession last Wednesday.. I promise to be good. :O Maga-aaral nako ulit ng mabuti. Nahihiya nako kay St. Jude of Thaddeus e. :) Now. For real. Suuuuper gusto ko na ng 'change'. I want the 'old me' back. ): Damn. This is hard. Extremely hard. Sobrang I don't know how to decipher things anymore.. Maybe this is because of the weather. Bummer weather. :O Croo! I hate this feeling. Makes me sick. T.T

It just started. Since Tuesday morning. Sobrang di ko na talaga alam. :O I feel groggy. Feeling ko.. Sobrang 'garbage' na ng lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. Being dragged somewhere out there. Been easily fooled and gave in. Huh? What's seem to be wrong? Is everything still okay? Nooo. This shouldn't be happening. (FOCUS) Where are you now? I've been trying to hard. Trying to patch things up.. Make things alright. But.. Still. :O As much as I want to feel mad at him. I just can't. I can't farm grudges. Boo. Srsly. Sobrang di ko na talaga alam. Kasi naman.. Basta mag-sorry lang talaga sakin yung tao kahit di pa sincere (well di ako marunong magdistinguish ng sincere apology sa hindi e) Sobrang dali ko lang talagang magpatawad agad. :/ As in like.. Kahit gaano pa ka-grave yung nagawang kasalanan sakin. Napapatawad ko talaga right away.

Hay. Was it right? Was it wrong? Tell me. Cause I don't know anymore. I'm torn. I'm totally confused. I don't know what to do. Ang hirap kasi e. May kasama ng feelings. :O TWO WEEKS? Isn't that too fast? Are we in the walking phase? Ano? Sobraaa. "Lasing lang nga yata talaga ako.. Kaya ko siya sinagot e?" PERO. Alam ko sa sarili kong hindi. :O "Right time-Right Place-Right Person?" With a certain degree of 'uncertainty?' Like what? Haaay. :O Just a little bit confused here. Di pa kasi kami nagkikita since Tuesday morning e. Since that 'incident' after his birthday. But we're good naman. Continuous parin naman yung communication namin, and we talked about the 'issue' already.. And I guess, everything's pretty good na. Actually, pinuntahan pa nga niya ko sa Jollibee e. But I wasn't there na. I was with my guy bestfriend. He feels a little bit jealous na nga e. Which makes my heart glad :)

Rawr. Finally, na-break narin yung ice between ice. Nagkita kami after his class. Imagine, the whole day, di kami nagkita. He did his thing, I did my own, as if.. Wala lang. Di kami nagkita. Nasa building na nga nila ako e. Yet. Haay. Okay. Pero okay lang talaga, at least.. Nung nagkita kami in the evening, we're back for good. :D Hinatid niya ko sa min. Kissed me. And yea. Sobrang namiss ko lang siyaaaa~