Omg, I don't know what to say right now, one hour pa lang ang nakakalipas since nag-start ang BIG DAY ko. I just can't imagine that oh wait, I'm not 19, as in nineteen. Ugh, ang tanda ko na pala, yet, sobrang childlike at heart parin ako. Well, I'm not childish uh :) anyway, I'm like friggin' speechless, Thursday, March 15, so that was yesterday, I don't know. The day before my birthday, well, it's my Best friend in College's birthday. It's Zhea's day. :) Things went really well today, I've met several friends, as in, kahit super accidental lang, it's really a good thing, full of positivism and good vibes. I'd like to share my happiness with you, dearest blogspot. :)
A few hours after, it's March 16, 2012,
and it's my BIG DAY! :)
Wow. It's like, late na naman ako for school, as usual, sa 1st subject ko, lagi nalang talaga. :) Anyway, I think it's because, I've been staying late at night, talking to my guy best friend, and you know who he is. I don't think I have to drop his name off, kasi he's been like always mentioned here naman, but oh well, if you insists, si Prince Charming po. :) Hahaha. Oh sige po, kilala mo naman kung sino ang original kong Prince Charming di ba? One and only lang yan. :) since he wanted to talk to me longer pa, I stayed for a little while, I guess, but, I hafta leave him na, cause di na talaga kaya ng eyes ko.
Anyways, I arrived at school ng past 1pm na, surprisingly, nooo, wait. Lemme scratch that. As always, Ma'am Ledesma's not yet around, so here we go, kulitin to the max with my guy friends. That awkward moment when one of my closest guy friend says: "Yung buhok ni Adrienne, Toni G. Yung mukha, Marian Rivera, yung katawan, KC Concepcion, tapos yung height.. Kiray". HAHAHHAHA. Ugh, this. Yung totoo, oo. Puro papapuri e, pero pwede? Yung height ko naman, duhhh. Mas matangakad naman ako dun noh. 5'2 naman kaya ako. Hahaha, ang mean lang talaga. Nakakainis, pero yung totoo lang, nang-iinsulto ni height? Buwisit. Oo na, sige na. Hmp. This made my day, like, what the actual fuck. =))
So what? Mas lalo pa akong nag-enjoy, nagiging meanie na naman ako, sobrang maldita ko lang. Lalo na't kasama ko pa si Ronald and Zhea, di ba? Ugh, "Ang susunod na palabas ay rated SPG" lol. :) Di makagetover, sobrang nakakahiya pa yung pagtunog ng phone ko, thrice tumunog. Panalo, sa Theo class pa namin uh. :)) Napurga yata ako sa pagpapakain sakin ng birthday girl na si Zhea ng chips, as in 'Chirpy'. Gracious goodness, bakit naman puro chips? Fiestang fiesta ha :) We took our final exam narin, and yerp, got some of our tentative final grades na for our TTH classes, yun, so far, so good, sobrang saaberry pataas naman yung mga grades ko :)
Quarter to 7pm, ang aga kong natapos mag-exam, so 'yun. Since may usapan kami nila Ate Myka and Pam na magkikita kami today. I went down na righr away, I have no idea pa nga kung anong gagawin ko for my day (tomorrow) which as is actually (now) na pala. Haha. Sobrang bilis lang ng time, parang kelan lang nung nagcocountdown ako e. I'm a little confused kung anong gagawin ko. Since, Jared invited me to go home with him tomorrow, as in, he was too happy pa when he got the news that I'll be going home din tomorrow, whereas, it's my special day pa. :) plus, I have this dilemma nga, which is which? Ugh, friends or best friends? Or, pwede naman palang both. Lol. :) Buti nalang I asked my Mom, and yerp, twas actually a great idea. :) I'll be celebrating my day with all of them tomorrow. With my College friends and my best guy friend, Jared. :P
We've been talking about so many things these past few days, we've been talking for so many hours too, just like before, I just can't imagine, and I ain't getting the idea yet, why? :) Naah, I'm not kidding, I can't read him (again). He's being too secretive with this feelings and intentions though, but oh well, as what they've been telling, 'Actions speaks louder than words'. And based sa pagkakakilala ko naman sakanya, he's really a mysterious guy, I'm just happy that, he's making time for me na, like, everyday, he never fails to communicate with me. Imagine, he's the one even initiating the talk. And this is a little intense, he invited me somewhere on Saturday, which is the day after my birthday, he asked me, if I'll be doing something daw, so I have a feeling na, he'll ask me out, that's why I said, "Nothing really". So that's it, he's sounding too cute last night, I can't help but think, and figure things out. Ugh, you're making me think, but, according to what I feel. "This is just nothing." There's nothing much more than "plain friendship". I can't explain why, but. You might know the answer instead of me saying it. For I might say something that's actually fallacious for my reader/s.
*Somebody else's owns my heart* Still.
Stayed in UST, til 8:30pm, with Ate Myka, Serine and with the boys. :) It's a little awkward lang, but that's it. Plus, surprisingly, I saw a bag which was very familiar to me, after all. I was right, that belongs to my brother pala. Haha. Sabi ko na nga ba e. Walang may ibang bag na ganun, except him e. :P Unconsciously, nagiging awkward na pala yung surrounding, without me, even noticing, ugh, as usual, so sobrang pagka existentialist ko pa naman. I was like, screaming on top of my lungs, freakin' out, ugh, thinking if he's gonna greet me or not. Migosh, srsly, I got mind fucked and became pretty conscious about the time. I roughly have 4 hours left, then, 3 hours, and so on. Ugh, twas a very funny thing that one of my former ex, passes by, a High School sweet heart, I asked for my gift, then he says.. "Tara, Moonleaf." Gosh, I don't know, he's like being sweet, and mapang-asar parin at the same time, ugh, I even hit him with my jacket when he reminded me of that 'one vote thingy' :) Srsly, makes me think of those old good times. "He was with me during those times, he used to wipe my tears, when I was so down about that one vote thingy". Haha, made me so much thankful about all these things, now.. I'm really a strong woman, with of course, great values as a whole.
I was able to have a mini conversation with Mafe, too. Sobrang timely lang, after my long ago ex, treated me a milk tea, Mafe and I were texting, I told her, we were outside, TYK, then, palabas na sila ng Dapitan, then.. We crossed roads sa may Dapitan nga. It's a funny thing, how I made friends with her, plus, it's as if, we're like really close to each other, I seldom feel that way towards a person. I kissed her, and bade a good bye. :) Hinatid naman kami ni ex sa condo, while I was with Ate Myka parin naman. We stayed til 10:30pm, and while there downstairs, killing the time, I don't know, sobrang daming nangyari. That I can't explain. "Oo nga pala, sobrang ibang iba na ang lahat ngayon". In all fairness, bigla ko siyang namiss. Bigla kong namiss si Bannag. And with all honestly, I am hoping that, well, at least he'll make an effort to greet me, and make this day extra special, still. Ugh, I became too paranoid. 'Ate, baka di niya ako batiin, my gosh, huhuhu, baka nakalimutan na niya.' Omg, I am sounding like a little desperate already, but I was really expecting, darn it. :'(
Habang nag-eemote ako, habang iniisip ko, if ever may possibility bang batiin niya ako on my day, bigla naman akong pinakilig ni guy best friend. "Pupunta ako sa inyo sa Saturday uh, susunduin kita sa inyo". Sheeeet. Sheeet lang talaga, wait. Srsly, nagulat ako ng wagas. :) Sobrang totoong totoo nga yung paglabas namin on Saturday, effort ha. At talagang susunduin pa niya ako sa bahay namin. OMGGGGG. :"> I can't resist, yerp, kinikilig akong nalulungkot. Sobrang mixed emotions. Ugh, 'eto na nga yung biyaya o. Ayaw ko pang i-grab. Kung saan saan pa ako tumitingin at nagfofocus, bakit ganito? Sobrang nalipat na yata lahat ng feelings ko para sa kanya nung sakanya. Ahaha, oo. Ang gulo, di ba? Pero, alam ko blogspot, gets mo ko. :)
So ayon nga, it's final. Tomorrow, I'll be celebrating my day with my blockmates and guy best friend, Jared. :) then, we'll go home together sa Bulacan. Will celebrate with my family, then. Saturday, we'll go out with Jared. OMGGGG. :">
I cried so hard nga pala tonight. It's 2 o'clock in the morning, two hours na pala ang nakalipas. Sobrang bilis, di ko namalayan. My Mom, whom made me cry first, as in. I don't know what to say, sobrang thankful ako, cause she's my Mom, with all these things around me, that she keeps on providing me, my Dad, of course, na sobrang namimiss ko na talaga, he made me cry a pail. He's faraway right now kasi, sa iba na yung duty niya, he made me cry harder, sobrang seldom nalang kasi kaming magkita, and mag-usap, my gosh, I can't control my tears from falling. Sobrang masaya ako. I've got the BEST PARENTS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD. I can't explain how happy I am, and at the same time, I can't believe, all these things are happening to me. GOD is really GOOD to me. And I can't ask for more, I can't even thank HIM enough for all these countless blessings HE'S continuously showering me.
My friends, 2PHL in particular, especially the guys, na hindi pa agad natulog, just to wait for 12mn, ugh, sobrang naappreciate ko yung sweetness nila. ;) My roommates, my soulsisters for life, though one year na yung nakalipas, nandyan parin sila. ;) 2nd year na ako ngayon, sobrang dami nang pagbabago. To my ex boyfriend, my gosh, he also made me cry, sayang konting push lang sana, but it seems like, sobrang wala nang 'hope'. Okay, this ends the real chapter and score between us, hanggang birthday ko lang naman yung binigay kong deadline para sa amin e. 6 weeks and 6 six days, fine, suko na ko sa pagmamahal ko sa'yo. :) I waited and hoped this far, yet. :) But, I miss you so bad. Just so you know. Thanks for completing my list. :)
OMGGG, I have a feeling na, di na yata ako makakatulog tonight, sobrang nag-uumapaw yung happiness ko, sa mga nag-effort tumawag para batiin ako, sa mga nagtext, nagwallpost, my gosh. Sa lahat lahat, sobrang dami niyo, I can't enumerate all of you, alam niyo yan, kahit simula palang ng day ko, feeling ko, patapos narin e. Haha, kasi.. Kahit wala sinalubong ko palang siya tonight, sobrang blast na. Cheers. :) as in, di ako makapaniwalang sobrang dami palang tao ang patuloy na nagmamahal sakin. I just can't believe I'm super blessed by HIM.
And later, sa pag sikat ni Haring Araw, I assure myself, na magiging sobrang masaya ako, I won't let anything nor anyone else piss me off. :) Dapat puro happiness and energy lang, at ngayong.. Nineteen na ako, NINETEENdihan ko na, na ang lahat ng bagay sa mundo'y, unfair. Joke. :) NINETEENdihan ko na, kung bakit lahat ng 'to, kailangan kong pagdaanan at harapin. At ngayong strong na ako, nooo, MAS strong pala, I'll prove everyone, well, not just myself.. That I deserved to be love by them, and that, they won't regret loving me in the first place. At ngayong nineteen na ako, NINETEENdihan ko na kung bakit ganito kaganda ang buhay. :"> I am happy and thankful with everything that I have in life now. :) With that, I end my blog for tonight, I 'll post the continuation tomorrow or prolly the next day. :)
PS: It's Baby Girl's Last Year as a Teenage Dream Girl :) ~
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