I DON’T DESERVE THE LOVE YOU’RE GIVING ME

Just wrap me in your arms, and hold me close. Let me rest my head on your chest, and let your heartbeat be my lullaby. I Miss You! :>


I realized that maybe it's better if we'll go back to where we've started. Just so you know, last summer. We ain't committed to each other, but one thing, I know's for sure, and that my heart only wants to love you. Pero, I don't know now. :|
I tried to set a distance for a week. And it helped me, bit by bit. I'm starting to carry on.
I don't miss you that much anymore. (I don't know if 'twas my intention or not, what I know is that, I want and am controlling myself to love you)
That night when I was hurt by you, I made up my mind, I told myself, you promised me not to hurt me physically anymore, but you did it once again. Even just the thought of you- (Nung nasa may poste, you said, kanina mo pa ko gusto saktan, pero you were just like respecting me) Well, if you truly love me, you wouldn't think of that, like hurting me so bad. Even though I know you were just carried away by emotions, but the fact that made you think, like you HAVE to hurt me. That changed everything.
I was just fucking guilty. That's why I changed my mind. But, I made up my mind. This isn't doing any good after all. Though I know that I love you, still, it wouldn't change anything.
I know I've got tons of flaws and everything. But, really, am sorry. I can't be the person whom you want me to be. It has totally changed everything. That one week really helped me, if last week, I was crying and bleeding. Now I don't know anymore. To be honest with you-
I tried, and I did. But I am now tired. I am now tired of understanding you. Maybe you would say that I really didn’t loved nor understand you in the first place. But come to think of this, when we first started, you know that my heart’s not yet yours. And now that it’s yours and starting to fall apart, I’m really sorry. It’ll never be just the same anymore.

Are you questioning my love for you? I hate to regret everything that happened cause I know, ‘twas also my choice after all. How I wish we could just get back to where we've started, but I guess, that's now impossible. Everything's totally fucked up.
Mahal parin kita, oo. Given nay un. Pero tandaan mo, di na kagaya ng dati. There's a part of me saying. Tama na. Tigilan nalang natin to. Ayoko narin namang masaktan ako e. Hahaha, ang tanong naman dito. Kung minahal o hindi di ba? Grabe. Oo naman, minahal naman talaga kita. At ikaw naman talaga pinakaminahal ko. Kahit kanino mo pa itanong. MAS mahal naman kita sakanya. Hindi kita ginago o niloko, dahil wala namang ibang taong involved. Gusto ko lang magpakatotoo sa sarili ko.

This may now be the end of everything. I am happy I was able to spend my 4 months of love with you. Even though you’re claiming that this isn’t real, in me, I am sure and I know that I loved you enough. I’ve been true to myself; I’ve shown you who really I am. Just so you know, even though two individuals love each other so much, the other one has to let go of the other, if he/she’s no longer happy.

That’s the real essence of love. Even though you wouldn’t be like what you used to be before. Someday, somewhere, when everything’s again fixed, we could still be the best of friends. Maybe we’ll then be better if we’re just friends, nothing deeper than that. And now it’s getting late, if I should have kept my eyes open and was never blinded by love, I’ll never be this way. On the other hand, I am happy that you’ve been a part of me entity, that I have loved you, and allowed you to be a sole part of me.

I know I have caused you too much pain in the ass and in your heart as well. But maybe, this will be better for the best of us. Yea, and even at least THE BEST. I don’t want you to enclose and be tied with the wrong person. I don’t want you to get hurt of loving me still. Sometimes, we have to let go. I want you to be a forecasting shadow of my dreams. I still want you to be a part of my life. Like, I’d still want to be friends with you. But this time, I know we have to let go. We have to move on.


I DON’T DESERVE THE LOVE YOU’RE GIVING ME. Cause I know I can never ever love you just the same way you do.

"Alisin na natin yung nakakasakit kasi mas okay yung isang matinding sakitan nalang, pagkatpos kasi nyan, makakangiti na tayo ulit."