LIVE IN THE PRESENT AND MAKE IT BEAUTIFUL

May 24, 2011

"The moment of truth, the sweetest climax of my dreams, waiting for that twenty six days of torment without you by my side, wishing that this day will come and we'll be back again with each others' arms; the moment our lips touched again so sugarcoat; and the moment I felt your warmth and loving embraces wrapped me with your unconditional eros and agape." And now baby, please tell me, we're back, we're back for good, and we're back to reality, no more complications and no more turning backs; you're now again mine and I'm yours eternally. ;)

The melancholic dilemma I was into those long days and nights without him was so melodramatic, and it continuously breaks my heart, unconsciously tearing each parts and pieces of me, and I love that I was again able to feel it; finally it has now ended. That after the long wait, it's now over. HE'S BACK, hugging and kissing me again for real. And it's just like, the time has always been reminding me to admit to myself that, now am willing to surrender and give up and offer my whole entity to him. Cause he caught my heart with a love so deep and true, with his lips sealed me with a kiss with so much tender loving care. And I love him to death, that am willing to give my everything to him. And that I have already decided, breaks the belief of mine, that once entering a relationship, you can't measure the love that you can actually give to your partner, like for example, before, I used to believe that in a scale of 100%, I can only and I only have to give 70% to my partner, with limitations and restrictions while 30% for me; but that suddenly changed and fed up when I fell in love with this guy at present, making me fall and fall deeper and deeper in love with him everyday. And I just can't control my feelings anymore; I can't make and put up a barrier against him, pushing him against the wall, cause in reality, when I fall in love, I don't mind nor I don't care if spontaneously am already losing and giving far more of myself than much expected from me. Cause I am willing to love and surrender even my soul to him, because I am sure and am at ease that once he told me, he'll never leave me hanging, that he'll stay all by my side whenever I needed him, like even though through the good times and the bad times, ups and downs of my life, he'll remain in love with me, and that, I feel the same way for him. And that's just simply enough; Cause every now and then, he reminds me that am not alone, and how much deep is this love that we're sharing, that no matter what, even though we're at this young age of ours, we can see each other as mature spouses, telling each other, and making each other how our love will be for eternity. And I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH, I JUST CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF, FALLING AND FALLING FOR HIM EVEN MORE, AND THAT I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. And I can't afford to lose him, cause he's my other half, the other missing half of my heart, the sole owner of me. And I'll never give up on him, and HE IS THE MAN, I wish to be my LAST. The man I want to be with all through out my FOREVER, and until this forever dies and ends. Cause I know, FOREVER is never ending, just like my love for you baby. :*

One realization I have to ponder on: "Don't cry over the past, it's gone. Don't stress about the future, it hasn't arrived. Live in the present and make it beautiful."

Live in the present and make it beautiful; we make this real forever, we're beautiful, this chemistry we have is making me feel more GORGEOUS than ever, more and better the world can ever give me. Three months down, forever to go~