I'll let you go, I'll let you fly. Why do I keep on asking why? Aya. Hm. Well blog, I have to tell you honestly what I am feeling, ooh not now, but last Friday. Am depressed, as in like super. Things are not going on my way. I feel sorry fer myself. Self pitying is my thingy. Well, am a hesitant, I don't think I can still handle these things. :| this problem of mine is slowly killing me. Til now, I haven't sleep yet, I haven't eaten anything. Gahd. I don't know what to do now.. :|- This was my scenario the whole Friday.
Alright, so I think I have to cite the reason now, why am badly feeling that way. Hmmm. Ahaha. This may sound really weird, but my problem isn't really a huge worry anyway. It's just that, I think it fail me. I failed myself, I know. :| knowing, hoping and believing that I'll be in my dream university already, as in like, I am solely meant to be there.- DLSU. :( but last April 16, yes, Friday. My dad decided that i should rather go to UST. 'Cause of my course, then, he just recently discovered that my course in UST best fits me, which is Mass Communication. So here, I can't just simply accept it. Very superficial right? A lot are marvelously dying over this Institution, and am this a little kinda suppressant to it. The fact that, I know, I won't meet my expectation. That's it, but am totally alright now. Actually Mom and I went to DLSU this morning, trying to refund the 5k. Ahaha. But NONREFUNDABLE. Aww. :( anyways, my Mom and i got a deal. :) Here, if I won't like my stay in UST, I'll transfer right away to DLSU. :))) then, I just whispered to myself: What is 5 months of being there anyway? Hmm. Don't worry, now am feeling very well. Though I let go of my dream university cause of a reason, why I said, is very much SUPERFICIAL, well, prior to that. Am still glad. Maybe, I was just not meant to be there. Maybe God has better plans fer me. Or am thinking if.. He'll let me experience first, the 400 year celebration of the university. Then, Mom promised me, I'll be living my life, still the same. Convenient. U Tower says it all. :)
Well, after asking fer that refund thingy in De La Salle University, c'mon. Last glance. As in, stolen glances. ^^ again, I've cursed myself. I promise, I'll be with you DLSU, just wait fer 5 months and so. I'll just complete one semester, just to let my parents feel that am not neglecting them. Anyways, they're the ones deciding fer me still. I know am still a minor, that I can't decide fe my own yet. So there. Well, I have to face this sitch as of the moment. Anyways, Mom said, being a Frosh is just a Trial and an Error thingy. Ooh. Alright, so now. Lemme tell you my story on how I have just easily let go of it and see the brighter side of it in a way. :) Yeaa. We went right straight to Robinson's Ermita, well, that's way too early still in a morning of a Saturday. Shop at Top Shop, Dorothy Perkins, Charles and Keith, Mango, PRP and Freeway. :) Yeaa. I am now totally happy. C'mon. I know Mom is pretty much right, I don't feel much depression anymore. Shopping is the best medicine. IKR, best cure. AHAHA. :p BTW, we ate our lunch at Sbarro, yummy pasta and pizza, gahd. After eating, am feeling really bloated. To the point that, I can no longer breathe. :p before going home, got my snack at Dairy Queen. My favorite yummy OREO BLiZZARD. :))
Well, I'mma say, I can easily recover now. HAHAHA. To my parents, DEAL with yer offer. I'll wait fer 5 months, and ooohh. I'll be with you SOON- Dream University. :)
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