I Don't Feel So Alone

Ooh what the fudge! It's 2:30AM, and I am here, still in front of my computer, enjoying myself to sleep. I mean, what an agony fer me. Having a hard time sleeping is strange. Insomniac? Ooh c'mon. I'mma hurt this habitual thingy of mine. What a story plan it may be. I remember, the photo I reblogged last night on my Tumblr page, it is entitled "My Time Schedule" where it goes a cycle of this: sleep, wake I up exhausted, pledge to go early tonight, sleepy all day, finally wake up later, wide awake! It's late, but who cares it's time to party! Then, it's 2AM I should probably go to bed. :p

Imagine? Haha. This is incredible, just exactly the same thingy am doing the first days of my summer. It's just that, my parents are magnificently busy again with their works, and the last time we go out all together was last Holy Week. Anyways, I am always a deary daughter, trying to understand everything about my workaholic slash all time busy parents. :| and ooh, whatever may be the cause of my rhetorical speaking, it doesn't really matter now. Well, I couldn't just imagine that I ain't worrying much as what I can always remember, I was trying to do the past years. I mean, no worries about my entire High School life. But then, again, I can't still find a place here in my heart, asking myself on how exactly I am prepared fer this so-called College life? Hmm. Again, apparently blank. I don't know what to say.

Ooh maybe before, I would always want to go off that hell. That crucial stage of my life, where I've got a lot of haters. You know what I exactly mean, hmm. These people Miss Congeniality can't please. Sorry to me. Haha. :p anyways, I know. When I enter College, everything will turned back to zero. I mean, like, ooh. I am no longer the Most Popular Student inside the campus, nobody will ever try to speak about me. With deep wonderment, what would it be like being a College student? Ooh. Damn, I am still confused. Super wanderer. Starting all over again is a little hard. Knowing that, I'll be mingling with new set of people. Making new friends with them, and ooh again, will simply try to please them. But ooh, I see. I know I have changed. I won't bother myself doing that selfish and cowardice act any longer. I don't wanna look stupid. Haha. Ain't no longer a High School sweetie babe. Right? :p

This blog is extremely an out of the blue product. Like, I can't just hardly explain to myself, why am having this abnormality in sleeping? You know this insomnia trying to kill me. Sleeping at around 3-5 AM, then, barely waking up at 1-3PM. Ooh. How unhealthy. Hate it, I hate myself fer being so much like this. So stubborn of a freak. Duh. I can't just control myself. But I swear, next week, I'll better check on my schedule. Maybe it's just that. We're having visitors now and I can't move freely. Can't sleep as ease either. Correction: Am so near to this slow hermit struggle. Like, starving myself the whole day, but sleeping has turned out to be the alternation. Ooh hell. This is too much insanity. Am vigorously lame lazy. :(

Gimme more time fer preparation, then, I promise to perform repose in new ways. :) just gimme the remaining weeks of my wee hours of being a stubborn High School student. :))'cause surely, I'll miss these moments. ^^