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November 07, 2012

Dear Blogspot,

Omg. First kong mag entry na ganito ka corny. Haha. I mean, this is my first to write an entry with such approach. So today is Wednesday, middle of the week na naman. And as expected, I’ll be a condo bummer lang for the next two days. But mind you, I have my interview for a job offering for tomorrow. So, I better sleep early tonight to take a beauty sleep. But that, I doubt. Syempre naman, as always. And mind-set ko, I mean, body clock ko, forever abnormal. ‘Di natutulog sa time ng human person. Sa time ng zombie. Anyway, I think I was able to regain back my senses and my mojos back again. I don’t know what happened. Pero something popped out just that way. Simple as that, without me, even noticing it. It’s strange. Pero last night, I was extremely down, for whatever reason/s, I can’t barely distinguish what. Gaah, naaabnormal lang siguro ako last night, pero all is good again. I’m back to the real me. So happy. Anyway, back to what I was saying earlier. It’s a Wednesday today. Midday of the week. School days. “Better late than never”. I was too early for my Political Philosophy class today, to my surprise. I was damn early nga pala talaga, ‘cause our professor wasn’t around pa when I reached Room 114. It’s just that, Zhea texted me, asking kung where I was na, so I immediately rushed in to Room 114, for I thought na may prof na. ‘Yun pala, wala pa.

Anyway, I just didn’t like the strange feeling I got upon entering the room. Maybe because, I wasn’t really well last night, kaya ganun nalang pagkabatrip ko. :O Let’s say, I am learning the art of detachment. I am trying to detach myself again, from people. I don’t know. It’s weird, pero feeling ko, I have to this now. At the moment. Pero, temporarily lang naman. I just need to figure out what’s wrong. Luckily, parang nafigure out ko naman agad kung ano talaga. I was just. Yeah, maybe I was just tired. Not physically. But damn emotionally. I have this feeling na, natatake for granted kasi ako. Understanding a lot of people around me. And I just can’t understand why. But still, I am trying to understand them. Not that am complaining, but am feeling betrayed, not by them. But myself, my feelings. It’s weird, kasi I ain’t blaming them. No one to blame. Just keeping my cool. Just keeping everything light and fine.

So as a result, I am happy again. Back to the bubbly personality I naturally have. So ‘yun nga. I never knew na, they were there pala sa room. Like, classmates naming sila (4th year admirers) for Political Philosophy, under Sir Bolanos. Omg. At first, I didn’t notice them, pero nung napatingin ako sa likod. Baaah. Kill me, rescue me! Hahahaha. Instant reaction. Well, your admirers are around. And they’re just near you. I’m feeling a bit conscious, for I don’t know how to act (normally), this is a different sitch kasi. They used to be my online admirers since Second Year, and I am friggin’ aware how awkward it is to be with them in a class. This certain feeling na.. You need to look or appear like someone they really have to admire. Kasi, I don’t know. Bastaaaa. That awkward moment I can’t really explain how it works. So there you go, I can’t look at them at the book, but knowing that they’re seated right next to me, there at the back, gives me more jitters. Gaah, Sir Bolanos. He’s one of the respected Philosophy professors in AB. Well, the natural reaction. I was extremely nervous. Pero, medj happy narin at the same time. (Made me missed Sir Rigor all of a sudden). Oh well, first meeting pala, a lot of readings na agad. :O Mehh, makes me wanna go on a suicide. Hahaha. After explaining a lot of everything.. Class dismissed. Finally, I can’t stand the feeling lang kasi. And I am seated in a row of all guys. I was the only girl in that case. But yeah, after class, I asked Venus and Jinny to accompany me at Starbucks. Yaay, since am collecting stickers for the 2013 planner, yeah. Game face on. Yuletide Season is purga season. Hahaha. If you know what I mean, I have to drink lotsa coffee all over again, and splurge too much for coffee. Like, everyday, it’s a Starbucks day. Doesn’t count. Just saying. Anyway, I had a great day today. Since I was able to regain my senses na nga, and I was able to talk to Zhea about my promised story, which I guess, I was able to deliver so nicely naman. Ehh, everything turned out really well. Maybe ganun lang talaga, every other day ang shifting ng emotions ko. Trololol. Since, medj may pagka moody nga ako. But not that severe naman. Mild pa lang. Thank God. Grr, our Literature professor ditched us this evening. Our 6-9pm class. Mehhh, I was expecting for Ma’am Siao pa naman. ‘Yun pala, hindi siya. Anyhow, early dismissal. Napag trippan pa ako ni Ronald at ni Tonton, before going home. I was the only one left sa room pa kami ni Zhea, and voila! They’re all gone. Dismissal na pala. And our bags where the only ones left. Boo, halos maiyak ako. Patayan daw ba ko ng ilaw sa loob. Omg. Matatakutin pa naman ako. :O And I thought it’s a bit early pa, so I stayed with my blockmates pa muna sa Quadri Park. With Ate Tine, Tine, Aiko, Jinny, Jae, Bren, Glenn, Venus and Sam. Ate Kristine was rehearsing a dance step kasi for Friday’s talent show e. I accompanied the girls to go buy something sa carpark, then bumalik na kami sa Q Square. And from a far, while I was seated there sa mga rocky effects, hahaha. I saw a familiar face. And I was damn happy to see him, so yeah, without any hesitations, I screamed.. “Sir Rigooooorrr!” then Sir stopped there. Just there, and stayed with us for a couple of minutes.

Just the old Sir Rigor from last semester. Very cool and very childlike. Nangungulit as always. Asking how my friends are, hahaha. With that meaningful look. Seryosohan. Nakakamiss si Sir. I was just happy, I was able to make my blockmates smile as well, with Sir Rigor’s presence around. Kahit for a short time lang. I went home with Ate Tine and Tine. I gave the boys a chance to talk. Jessie, Cedjap and Nigel. Actually, they’re asking me to stay pa. Kwentuhan muna and all. But yea, I have to go home early, ‘cause Father dear is around. So yun. I went home early. I wasn’t able to come with some of my classmates for Antips tonight, overnight. With Meg, Kyle, Nyny, Aiko, Bren and Jae. But it was just all right. I’d rather stay home for my family tonight, and I don’t feel like going out pa e. Not in the mood yet. Plus, I have my interview for a job offering tomorrow. (wherein, my parents are not aware of), but I’m gonna push through parin. Hahaha. So yeah.

This is how my Third Day of the Second Semester goes. How about yours? :D
Ta-ta! 