Cause in my Heart the Reality is You

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

Now I know why I still... and I don't want to be in a relationship, into another relationship. I still love him. Sadly, I still do. There's always be, there will also be this part of him right here in my heart that simply can't let go. Can't move on, can't forget about you, love.

That was like, five years. I thought so. I thought I "was" okay. But now I know, I am not okay. I feel that I am not okay, and certainly, I am not. This pains me, but seriously... I still hope and wish, and pray to have him in my life. The saddest part, is I know that wouldn't happen anymore.

Five years in torment. I feel like... Going back to the things themselves, that feelings would soon fade away, and that I could find someone else to fill in such emptiness he embarked on my heart. But no. He is still here. Still occupying a huge space, maybe in my heart? But in my memory, he's gone. He's dead.

Until today... I can't deny it. I can't resist. He's still the one I wish to be with... But things couldn't be anymore. He's in love with someone else's eye. Once, he fell deep into my eyes, but now... he doesn't give a glimpse back of hope, not even friendship... Cause I simply reject it, for the reason that I can't accept a friendship, because I want something more. Something deeper.

To my love, to the guy I once loved, and still love right now... Is five years isn't enough yet to forget about? Is five years isn't too long to simply give another try with someone else? I don't know. I really don't know. This is hurting me, but I must... I want to let go. Hence, I still can't.