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| Fuck!! YOLO! AsdfghjklW@@&(*& |
I didn't know, I just didn't know I was falling. Nor, I already fell. Have I already fallen? (I'm not certain enough). It's been difficult to delve, where I'm exactly right now. What I've given, or lose a part of me that I know's pretty essential. Henceforth, I just realized it doesn't really matter now. I don't feel guilty, or this certain remorse... Just because I know it's part of human nature. I don't want to sound pathetic, not even a heroine, hypocrite here. I have let go of those old principles, I used to believe in, just a couple of days now. I've been trying to figure out, what went wrong... Or is just because I've grown so much? --In the span of six months. It was totally different from the 19 year-old me. It something very squished, something elucidating. But then again, I don't feel guilty about it .
It was flattering. Today, I only realized the essence of "YOLO". I used to reject the idea, for I know, Buddhists would contest, in as far as they believe in reincarnation. But what's something to rejoice for, is that I acknowledge, I "now" acknowledge, what it takes to "live" only once. Hence, what if there'd be no more second chances, not even tomorrow and stuff. Why not live life, like every fucking single day, as if it's the last one? I know, this is sounding irrational. Disgrace, that I'm a philosophy major. Nevertheless, I'm sticking with this forerunner idea of today's generation. This Fucking.... Yolo. :)
What if today, you'd learn that I just broke my own rules? My own set of principles? Would you still trust me? Would you consider me as a liar? Someone who doesn't have a last word, and sense of responsibility to whatever I say? Would you? Would you kill me.... Would you hate me? I wouldn't wish to care. I wouldn't mind, because I know, hence I believe there's nothing wrong about it "now". I may have said, a million times ago, that it was wrong. But what happened? Why a sudden change of heart? A sudden change of mind? Is everything fucked up now? If you'd say yes, I wouldn't complain. Because I made you believe so. But would you spare me sometime? Just a little time, to make you "understand" what and why all of these things happened to me? Did you know....
Did you know, it's because of "freedom?" Technical term, right? I know.
What if today, you'd learn that I just broke my own rules? My own set of principles? Would you still trust me? Would you consider me as a liar? Someone who doesn't have a last word, and sense of responsibility to whatever I say? Would you? Would you kill me.... Would you hate me? I wouldn't wish to care. I wouldn't mind, because I know, hence I believe there's nothing wrong about it "now". I may have said, a million times ago, that it was wrong. But what happened? Why a sudden change of heart? A sudden change of mind? Is everything fucked up now? If you'd say yes, I wouldn't complain. Because I made you believe so. But would you spare me sometime? Just a little time, to make you "understand" what and why all of these things happened to me? Did you know....
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