I am Single, but Happy.

"For a thing of beauty is a joy forever."

Are you free, or should I ask instead, are you available?
I need an inspiration. Cause I'm in dire need of one. Too soon old; Too late smart. ~

You're one step closer, closer and closer every time I see you, but trust me.. I miss your arms around me. And yea, I still remember the first time I fell for you. I haven't gotten up since...
Damn, can't you see, can't you feel? I have this all time favorite rants of my heart, it never ceases to flow, it never ceases to go away. ~ "When I don't see you, I'm perfectly fine and I can move on. But the second time I see your face, I'm back to wishing you were mine again." :( How I wish you ARE mine again. Hopes? HOPELESS hopes in return.

"I have died every day waiting for you."
Please, say it if you mean it.~
Take the first step, you might not know, she's just waiting for you to say what you truly feel for her. Say it, it's never too late. Yea, I miss the old you, the old US, actually.

~The aftermaths after the breakup: Here comes the pain, seeing him smile, with that different glow in his eyes, without me being his damn sweet reason anymore. ~This is the reality of life, Relationship fails, relationship pains..

~Yea, I easily get hurt, sensitive and I overreact when it comes to you. Cause I admit it, you'll forever be my sweetest downfall. You're the extreme source of my strength and at the same time, my biggest weakness. You're my happiness, joy and excitement. AND you're also my loneliness, sorrow and doubt. But, I can't do anything about it. You're the love of my life. ~This is another reality of life. Love is a risk, love is bittersweet..

~Honestly, it's hard. Extremely hard. For I don't know where I'm standing right now. (again and again). Who and what am I to you? Do I matter, do I exist in your life? Same dilemma over and over again, without me figuring out the 'answer' yet. I'm in too much despair. Here's the pain of two people having fun, right? No strings attached. You can feel something, but you can't complain whenever you're hurt. You may get hurt, but let me tell you, you don't have the right to question him, of you being hurt. You may get jealous, but again, that won't change the fact that he is not yours, and you don't belong to him neither, likewise, you're both free to do your own things in life. No strings attached, right?

~YES, you matter to him, but do you think it's more than enough? He may even treat you 'extra special' but you're not supposed to claim that he is yours. You should act natural, as if nothing's into depths. You don't have the right to complain about the things that he wishes to do for once and for all.. "You two, are not together". Admit it, it's a very complicated situation, a heartbreaking relationship, without it being called 'real'. For you omit the essence of 'commitment'. It's as if saying.. "KAYO NA PARANG DI RIN KAYO."

~Too much risk to take, too much courage to bear, and too much tears to shed, afterwards. You can hope, but you should never expect. You can fall, you can love.. But you're not suppose to get hurt and feel hurt. Stop carrying your cross that much, and that long. Stop prolonging your agony, you don't own all the problems in this world. ~

~ I am not yet ready for a 'real' commitment. A 'real' relationship, I ain't willing to bear pain, more like, handle and deal with it on my own. I still have two more years in College, I haven't found the 'right one' for me yet, I am still waiting for that guy. That guy whose 'destined' to take care of me and 'own' my heart. And never breaks it..

~Therefore, "I am SINGLE but HAPPY." I'd rather be alone than being committed and miserable.

~Love, take the risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith.
I don't know this weird feeling anymore. "How does it feel to fall in love again?"
Twelve weeks of sanity, twelve weeks of being alone, but extremely happy. :)